Hi everyone it's been a while since I've been on here. I got clean (not by choice) 8/16/13. I've stayed clean by choice since then. It has not been easy, but it has been worthwhile even during these shit times. I had 30 years of using and have been clean for almost 7 years. It has had it's challenges. I now have a record, which I didn't over 7 years ago. I didn't work for 6 years and was surviving on poverty level income and still am. I've gained a ton of weight since I got clean, but I don't use. I thought how nice it would be to start taking a bunch of painkillers so that I can sleep through all of this crap. In other words, wake me when it's over. The only problem is if I did that I'd become a slave to this shit all over again. I have cleaned up my credit. I have gotten a job. I am one year away from getting my AA degree and my becoming a licensed substance abuse counselor. I can only imagine how hard it must be for those of you that have a habit during this quarantine (at least in So Cali there is). It's hard sometimes. I feel a range of emotions from anger, fear, sadness, gratitude, and then more anger, fear, sadness, and gratitude. If there is hope for me, then there is hope for you. I wanted to put that out there people. Let me know how you are holding up. Peace, love, and light.