Oh, deja-vu is basically the essence of dissociatives. It's supposed to be a temporal lobe partial seizure if I'm correct, and no clue whether this underlies part of the neurotoxicity NMDA antagonists seem to exhibit, unfortunately. I didn't want to believe it until it hit myself on the cold and I'm more or less unable to do any more dissociatives without getting schizo like symptoms (hearing voices et al). Maybe some healthy dose of LSD would have prevented this?
I'm thinking that even level 2 DXM may be a bit much because that was a time I must have been in level 2 that I experienced prolonged deja vu.
The past few times I've ever done DXM was never enough to make me vomit which must be not over level 1. I just can't muster up a desire to go hard on DXM, but on these rare occasions with Level 1 there is always an interesting insight or insights to be had. I mean they are definitely fulfilling so I suppose it is good that I naturally am unable to do it but every few years at most!
Actually, I stupidly was a bit drunk on alcohol when I wrote my previous reply so speaking of brain damage.... that's still the one drug I feel I ought to be more scared of than anything else. Sorry about that. It definitely fucks with my logic and emotions.
I'm going to stick with my low Level 1 DXM dose to avoid bad vibes for health concerns and see how the LSD enhances it next time. (I also like that LSD doesn't give me nausea so that is a main reason I like this combo)
It's been years and those combo experiences have stuck with me.
For instance, the "posterized vision" moment I had was also extraordinary in the sense that I can vividly remember it, but also that there was some control over the visual. Let me explain:
So it is moonlit night time and I am sitting in my car and can still see well. All the colors become posterized, just like the Photoshop filter. The "fine lines" between the values to create the posterized effect was the LSD crispness just being so amazing and was definitely synergistic. THE NEXT PART: I placed my hand on the dashboard and gently pressed up and forward and even though my hand was not moving, I hallucinated my hand actually pushing up and deforming the dashboard, like it was made of some fluid putty.
That moment just stuck with me so lucidly and vividly as one of my top hallucinogenic moments ever. I guess I'm a passionate about it because it felt like such a treat even among regular LSD visuals.
I really just want to be able to next time visit that landscape with more preparation and be able to focus more, because those previous times were during much more sporadic times of being able to dose and not having as a stable environment to be in (hence sitting in my car).
The last time I did just a DXM at all was Level 1 that was at least 2-3 years ago and I had the most profound insights of my place in the universe while looking at the recent Jupiter images that were released... I may need to go further than Jupiter with the LSD and the DXM together... this could be a real space mission!
