Michael. I almost thought of locking this thread when I read the gist of it, but I understand you have been here a long time, and have been having similar issues for the entirety of it. Can you please try and step outside your own head for a second and seriously consider why people respond to you the way they do? Attraction isn’t about physicality, actually mostly. It may get you in the door, but not being intimidating and maybe being a little more open to others feelings about how they feel about themselves may help. Relationships, even just basic hookups are two way streets. I hope you find your way. I know it’s been tough for you.