Good research thanks. Suppression and overacting lately is what I need to meditate about and shape myself toward a slower reaction at that things that have been vaulted and lingering about with no attention. Glad I noticed the forum.
does anyone out there know any methods that aren't self-destructive to vent that, I don't know how to say this,angry pressure I seem to feel all the time that the needle used to fix. I'm clean right now but If I don't find something I don't know how long I can make it.
Tracking the feeling and watching it dissipate and inevitably change, while tracking it on the body and it's origin point etc (teal swan - follow the feeling). This last technique I not Been able to remember in heat of moment. All others are great. But tale a "safe space".
I got real angry when watching a trailer for a professional ballet dancer in cold war soviet Russia, realizing (because of child sexual abuse) certain opportunities are totally gone for me, as I'm now a relatively unhealthy 32 year old. I observed so much tension. Encased rage as walked home in rain after film. Felt like screaming but didn't.
"fear leads to anger anger leads to hate, hate leads to suffering" gods.
If we just get angry we don't have to go hateful, but why I quote this, is it's an active instead of frozen poor channeling of energy. Anger stops us from freezing into apathy and helplessness
Bioenergetics and breath awareness and techniques have really helped my anger issues. Also always looking inside, going to the root of why I'm angry. Not pointing finger outwards - it's always based on a fear. Often a gross overreaction. Realizing we are safe, and that watching the anger pass - anger is tension, breath change, hormones during, from primal urge to survive or protect. But if we track the feeling 9/10 it's alerting us to the fact we have a lot of prejudices built on past trauma inside our body, tied in knots in muscles, and neural pathways
All of which CAN be rebalanced with the right therapies, techniques, herbs, foods and intentional focus
Sometimes we just need to throw a primal screaming arms and legs flailing tantrum... But our society would get us arrested or at least approached maybe, so most of us repress...holding the tension in.
Well, when i get mad it goes away quickly, and i don't blow up at small things, but i feel like i compartmentalize the anger and it seeps out when i least expect it. I end up fucking Screaming at someone for something trivial, like most recently, asking where my lighter went, or telling someone to "suck my dick" just for being in the same room as me.
I go for long walks, which helps, but nothing seems to be able to tame the inevitable blow up.
Should i let it out earlier, by acknowledging i am angry when i am angry initially?
i'm angry I had to break my no-pipe pact by buying lighter gas. turns out what I was smoking wasn't smoking properly without a stronger flame. I was in the dark for 2 days. Maybe annoyed is more appropriate than angry. But I proved my point in so doing, I won't die wondering what could have been....no point begrudging myself when I should be patting myself on the back for reduction in consumption. it is what it is. actual anger is difficult for me to fathom because it is a non-practicable emotion. essentially! it's a phase of something other, like hurt or betrayal.