Did MDMA change your life? Positively or negativley?
I find that my first ecstasy experience happened to be my most profound. Before popping these pills, I had no idea this type of high and euphoria was achievable from such a simple, small pill. I realised that all emotions in life are simply derived from chemicals and their reactions to each other in our brain. The day after, I had an amazing glow, like I had been reborn (and I had).
Now, after a few more rolls, I wonder if this change has impacted me positively or negatively. No doubt about it, MDMA has torn down barriers that had been long withstanding. But at the same time, I seem to care less about how I come off to people, and care less about my future. Not quite like lowering my inhibitions, just like "theres always tomarrow" type of thing. I care less about a whole lot than before. It seems this would serve me bad in the future and im starting to feel the affects now. But I dont know if I can ever train myself to be the same. However, I now think (even more) outside of the box than ever before, I have no prejudices and have learned to let things go and not hold grudges.
Please excuse the essay. Did MDMA change your life?