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HEY HIGH GUY`S & GAL`S...``~_~``... ;) Is there a spot on this site to see where everyone is from-? looking for local`s in my area_? I am a recovering oxy addict just got my sublocade shot 100mg,+ 1.5mgklonopin+ 2400mg gabapentin and my crumble wax. i am happy today the bupe is strong the 2nd day lol but where is u all from-??????/ i`ll start I AM RESIDING IN PENNSYLVANIA CENTRAL P.A-USA-17011
 
Tbf whosa wasn't exactly a pillar of society. For all I know the needle led to the rehab he needed to get his shit together so he could finish his south afrikaan law studies. Did he change his name here @mods?
 
DopeM said:
Tbf whosa wasn't exactly a pillar of society. For all I know the needle led to the rehab he needed to get his shit together so he could finish his south afrikaan law studies. Did he change his name here @mods?
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Tbh I never got to know him that well beyond talking about how fucked up we were. I do remember that after he did rehab he really turned his life around (as far as I paid attention) and only ever came back to post like twice (once again afaik). I went back through the old HHAY threads a while ago and saw his account with his same name, but idk maybe he had another one.

So basically I know nothing, but I always liked him he was a fun guy.
 
DopeM said:
He started mountain biking and pining over rehab chicks. Typical white boy recovery
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IME that's about par for the course, yeah.

If he wanted to do it American style he'd also buy a snapback hat, smoke newports and drink nothing but monster while he talks about his kids he doesn't see anymore.
 
I think he hit 3 of 4 of those

He was a pioneer in the incel movement before it wuz kewl so I don't think kids are in the picture
 
I need to get some shit done today but all I can do is sit here.

Might be time to unpack the L. I unno. Not even half a point has got me doing much besides making breakfast and putzing
 
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schizopath said:
OH MY FUCKINGGOD I HAD LEFT A LETTER IN MY MAILBOX AND THE METH WAS IN IT
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lol @ those mailboxes that seemingly want to absorb the letter and it took a more careful inspection

I know that feel.

mal3volent said:
cap are you gonna let schizo take your abyss crown from u?
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Something really bad happened, not to me personally but I'm highly empathetic now and I'm still processing it. Just hearing the words kind of shook my world last night, I went numb, and was very depressed this morning.

I also read a short passage from a novel that seemed very inspiring, spoke to me, prophetic and extremely, extremely depressing.

I have been doing really well these last few days, being productive and focusing on real life and not self-destructive behaviors to cope with PTSD, but when some small things like that happen I start to not want to communicate with the outside world because I return to shell-shocked a bit.

Love you guys. <3 BE SAFE. I love you all so much.

devilsgospel said:
But one of Caps strengths is just being naturally meth high on anxiety, mania, and drama
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The PTSD manic high NE low cortisol overdrive is never going to leave me man. Relaxing becomes almost impossible especially after a torrent of bad news from last year to yesterday.

A lot of my life is going really well but hearing just a few devastating things can really push it all into perspective. :(

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WHOOO pushed that intrusive thought away. I can get through this. It is alright to be apprehensions regarding the possibility of pain. The desire to not feel pain/avoidance of trauma is SO GREAT in my mind at times I get intrusive thoughts from it. It is one of the three sources of spiritual suffering.
 
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