- Aug 1, 2010
- Greatest city on Earth
don't beat yourself up!!! relapses happen. addicts use like the earth goes round the sun, every day you can get clean is an achievement. and not being in debt and getting into your own place is great!Since then, I've been dead set on quiting. But i have relapsed. So, fuck me.
Once im in my apartment, which could be as soon as a month away, ill be far away from the drugs and the guys i live with. On my way back into the financial district. My therapist has an incredible amount of confidence in me, and honestly so do i.
At least, i am no longer in debt to my 5 main dealers this time around. That is a big step for me.
i used to be a night owl too, but now i have developed a more natural sleep pattern i get tired early. i have to start work at 9 and like going for a run before work.Thanx. Hm, yeah, I've become a bit of an owl. 9:30?
urgh i was so dumb last night. made up for lost time as soon as my boyfriend left, got absolutely shitfaced. think i took most of a box of neurofen plus last night because it has disappeared which was really stupid. going to probably have made myself pretty ill cos even though its not much codeine its enough to fuck over my screwed opioid receptors.
also got some take out on my way home from the shops and purged it. i had no plans to. it just occurred to me that i could and then it was a foregone conclusion. i haven't done that for years.