Catch-22
Bluelighter
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Music and drugs go hand in hand, it could be said that music is indeed a drug. I can easily listen to music and not take drugs but I would find it very hard to take drugs and not listen to music.
Since the 80’s people have realized there are massive amounts of pleasure to be gained from dancing and letting yourself go to electronic music, the term acid house was believed to come from the music simulating a trip (source: Altered State – Matthew Collins). Ecstasy culture and the “dance” scene go together hand in hand, but if the average “clubber” takes 3.7 pills and goes “clubbing” 4 times a month (source: Mixmag March 2003) then surely this can’t be doing them any good.
I first took Ecstasy almost 2 years before I even ventured in a club and even now I rarely ever need to take pills when I am in a club. This is because I wish to fully appreciate the music, I remember listening to the trance song “Café del Mar” in my room before I did Ecstasy and the feeling that it gave me when I let myself go, I imagined at the time this is what Ecstasy would feel like and after trying it I realized I was right.
If when you take Ecstasy it depends on your serotonin levels then surely we can reach this state without actually taking the drug itself, I think that the only way however to learn this is from taking the drug. In 1989 The Stone Roses released the seminal record “Fools Gold” a few years ago in an interview with Jockey Slut magazine the lyricist Ian Brown claimed the track was about Ecstasy and how you don’t need it to have a good time hence Ecstasy is the Fools Gold, Ian Brown also says he has not taken Ecstasy since 1990.
I have come to believe that Ecstasy is in a sense Fools gold, when I go out to a good club with a good atmosphere and great music, I do not feel the need to take Ecstasy and I do actually think I am having experiences which could only be likened to the effects of MDMA itself. Many people ask me what I have taken because I look so happy but I am in fact sober, “I’m having sex with the music and I can go all night” (source: Human Traffic - Moff).
I think a lot can be gained from MDMA but none more so than the realization that happiness is all in the mind and you just have to set it free. The feeling of natural happiness is a much nicer one than the chemical highs of drugs, although I think without taking the drugs it’s perhaps a lot harder to reach these states naturally. I believe that your brain having been in the position where it has felt these highs will associate certain sounds, flavors, feelings etc with the high meaning that if your brain has these associations triggered you can feel it again without the chemical assistance.
Walking around a club at 4am in the morning looking at all the fucked up people isn’t the most pleasant sight in the world, people staring into space, people off balance and jaw movements that would scare your Grandma. So is there really any need to go clubbing and take pills? I think not, if Ecstasy is Fools gold then we can recreate these feelings naturally and thus go out and save money and not dread the week after.
Ecstasy will teach you many lessons but the one lesson I learnt the hard way was, less is more. I started on ¼ of a pill, that was enough for me but within a few months this had grown to 10 pills a couple of years later and I’m back down to around 2 pills. Yes the quality of pills varies greatly although if we had lab-testing facilities this wouldn’t matter as much, but that is a different rant.
What I’m trying to say here is, think before you decide drug taking to be your new sport especially where Ecstasy is concerned. With no real studies into the actual long-term health effects we are putting our minds at risk, we can replace arms and legs these days but I’m not so sure about minds.
Ecstasy to me will always be my favorite drug, no matter how many interesting new psychedelics I take, I will always believe that Ecstasy changed me, changed me in a good way and changed me in a bad way but the fact that I can now see these bad ways and work out how to overcome them tells me its all good in the end.
If I had experienced Ecstasy for the first time in a club, it might all have been different but I think the only true way to enjoy the beauty of MDMA is out of a club in a comfortable place with all the things you enjoy.
I will continue to take Ecstasy for as long as I can but from taking too much I now have a greater respect for the drug and if I keep telling myself Ecstasy is Fools gold then I can surely achieve that state of mind whenever I please and I do.
I want people to read this and reconsider how they see Ecstasy, it’s a great tool, kind of like a chisel it can chip away at your inhibitions but it can also chip away at your mental health, a great carpenter never blames his tools.
Less is more and in many cases none at all is even better.
Since the 80’s people have realized there are massive amounts of pleasure to be gained from dancing and letting yourself go to electronic music, the term acid house was believed to come from the music simulating a trip (source: Altered State – Matthew Collins). Ecstasy culture and the “dance” scene go together hand in hand, but if the average “clubber” takes 3.7 pills and goes “clubbing” 4 times a month (source: Mixmag March 2003) then surely this can’t be doing them any good.
I first took Ecstasy almost 2 years before I even ventured in a club and even now I rarely ever need to take pills when I am in a club. This is because I wish to fully appreciate the music, I remember listening to the trance song “Café del Mar” in my room before I did Ecstasy and the feeling that it gave me when I let myself go, I imagined at the time this is what Ecstasy would feel like and after trying it I realized I was right.
If when you take Ecstasy it depends on your serotonin levels then surely we can reach this state without actually taking the drug itself, I think that the only way however to learn this is from taking the drug. In 1989 The Stone Roses released the seminal record “Fools Gold” a few years ago in an interview with Jockey Slut magazine the lyricist Ian Brown claimed the track was about Ecstasy and how you don’t need it to have a good time hence Ecstasy is the Fools Gold, Ian Brown also says he has not taken Ecstasy since 1990.
I have come to believe that Ecstasy is in a sense Fools gold, when I go out to a good club with a good atmosphere and great music, I do not feel the need to take Ecstasy and I do actually think I am having experiences which could only be likened to the effects of MDMA itself. Many people ask me what I have taken because I look so happy but I am in fact sober, “I’m having sex with the music and I can go all night” (source: Human Traffic - Moff).
I think a lot can be gained from MDMA but none more so than the realization that happiness is all in the mind and you just have to set it free. The feeling of natural happiness is a much nicer one than the chemical highs of drugs, although I think without taking the drugs it’s perhaps a lot harder to reach these states naturally. I believe that your brain having been in the position where it has felt these highs will associate certain sounds, flavors, feelings etc with the high meaning that if your brain has these associations triggered you can feel it again without the chemical assistance.
Walking around a club at 4am in the morning looking at all the fucked up people isn’t the most pleasant sight in the world, people staring into space, people off balance and jaw movements that would scare your Grandma. So is there really any need to go clubbing and take pills? I think not, if Ecstasy is Fools gold then we can recreate these feelings naturally and thus go out and save money and not dread the week after.
Ecstasy will teach you many lessons but the one lesson I learnt the hard way was, less is more. I started on ¼ of a pill, that was enough for me but within a few months this had grown to 10 pills a couple of years later and I’m back down to around 2 pills. Yes the quality of pills varies greatly although if we had lab-testing facilities this wouldn’t matter as much, but that is a different rant.
What I’m trying to say here is, think before you decide drug taking to be your new sport especially where Ecstasy is concerned. With no real studies into the actual long-term health effects we are putting our minds at risk, we can replace arms and legs these days but I’m not so sure about minds.
Ecstasy to me will always be my favorite drug, no matter how many interesting new psychedelics I take, I will always believe that Ecstasy changed me, changed me in a good way and changed me in a bad way but the fact that I can now see these bad ways and work out how to overcome them tells me its all good in the end.
If I had experienced Ecstasy for the first time in a club, it might all have been different but I think the only true way to enjoy the beauty of MDMA is out of a club in a comfortable place with all the things you enjoy.
I will continue to take Ecstasy for as long as I can but from taking too much I now have a greater respect for the drug and if I keep telling myself Ecstasy is Fools gold then I can surely achieve that state of mind whenever I please and I do.
I want people to read this and reconsider how they see Ecstasy, it’s a great tool, kind of like a chisel it can chip away at your inhibitions but it can also chip away at your mental health, a great carpenter never blames his tools.
Less is more and in many cases none at all is even better.
