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RoxyRoadToHell

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So here I am...detouring from Roxy road, finally. I think we can all remember when our problem started, so I won't go into much detail about that.

I know I searched like crazy to see what was next in stages of WD. So I'll post my experience.

Seemed like every month I had to go through WD for a day or so. I made it to 3 days once and then had my Oxy available again so I turned down that road again.

1st let me say....I don't know how many 30's I was shoving down my throat and the end of this. If I had to guess, I'd say around 10-12 a day. I'd been on them almost 3 years. The last week I had been on the OP 30's extended release only taking 2-3 a day and was fine.

Day 1 Sore Legs, restless, RLS, hot/cold sweats, haven't eaten or drank anything.

Day 2 still haven't ate or drank anything. Had 1 15mg of Oxy and it didn't do anything for the leg pains. That was at noon. Slept all night and went to bed at 8pm-5:30am.

Day 3. Feel great. No leg pain. Drank a little soda. Diarrhea has set in. No heavy cramping or cramps at all. Not anxious. Ate a little Cheetos just to up my energy level. For the most part I feel fine.

i think what's really help is not all the pain and suffering is together like it has been in the past for WD. This is different than what I have usually experienced.

I'm away from home, so I think that has helped, having different surroundings.

So here I am. Day 3 and I don't know what to expect next. Other than I'm detouring and staying off ROXY Road.
 
Hello,

I'am now awake for 32 hours. Day 6 but not complete cold turkey.
Would totally freak me out. ATM.

Normal with 32 hours not slept. Blub, hope to feel assleep at night and if it takes under tommorow evening. Taking now valarian root and hope that they kick in so I can sleep 2 hours or so.

I must now which substance causes the problem in my link.
Because I will do a rapid taper. I will as fast as possible this fucking chem from my body. If it is only noids, I will be able to manage it. But if threre are the diclazepams or better his metabolizem Delorazepam - pah this would destroy my plains for the next week.
I will and I won't controlled by a substance anymore.


Greez
LifeIsStrange
 
Day 4. Slept 3 hours last night and I feel blah again. Diarrhea has set in twice already this morning and let me just say wow. I'm not digging this by any means. I really hope this is the peak and this nightmare will soon be over.
 
Good job Roxy and Life too. Today is day 5. It sucks, last nite was one of those waking up every f... hour exactly omg. You can do it, one second at a time. Reading on this site really helps so thank you for posting because I don't feel so alone.
 
I find myself crying this morning and wondering if I'm strong enough to stay away. I know I don't want to ever feel this way again. So I know the answer is yes.

I just want to be normal again. Whenever that may be.

Bono-This site does give strength for sure. Good luck to you too.
 
Thanx Roxy! I am hoping it lightens up for you. Are you taking anything at all to help? I question myself all the time about how strong am i? We'll no answer yet but I do find myself in tears a lot in my room, thinking what is so great about feeling "normal" ? Is being clean worth it?, I like your synopsis of detouring off roxy road, guess I follow the detour sign too for now, thanks....
 
Phenergan really seemed to be the only thing that kicked the nausea and leg pains in an hour and have remained gone so I haven't dosed anymore with that.

I took 1 15mg Roxy on day 2 and it didn't phase any of the pains or the symptoms. My tolerance is too high for that to amount to anything, even being cold turkey.

But I've just been taking Tylenol to get rid of the lack of food headaches. I think that might be why I had such an upset tummy.

I never smoked weed before. Surprising huh? So I took 4 hits over s course of about 5 hours. Didn't do much but kinda made the restless leg come back a little whil "high"

But other than that I've just been riding it out the best I can.

Bono-Don't go through this again. I think being clean and normal is really worth it. My life is a complete and utter mess because of this stuff. I don't know how old you are, but I'll be 34 pretty soon. I have 1 child that's 15 and a husband who's also lost on Roxy road. Within 2 years I lost my home, on the verge of losing everything else. It really isn't worth this. I want my carefree life back where there's money in the bank and I can buy impulsive and not worry about it. Not look at my bank account and see only $0.28.

I hope you find the strength to stay on the detour until you find the best road to get off on.

I don't know what kind of music you like, but YouTube Aaron Okeefe 46 and 2. It's a Tool cover. But it's like today I can finally hear the music again over the fog. As I drove home today, I jammed the hell out of that song and had euphoria unlike chasing a pill. I can't describe it.
 
you are soooo right. i dont want to do this again. i have a few years on ya but that doesnt matter, we are still fighting the same battle, it is rough. I know from reading here a lot of people take immodium to help, i never, have so it just a suggestion depending on how you feel about it. I have lost much through this, a marriage,a career, a pension, just stability and trust overall from family, a dui in 2013 that cost me my little savings i had left. i know what you mean about music though, i was listening to Journey the other day and did the same thing you did jammed the hell out of the radio and it was a good feeling, something about music sounding better when you are clean, cant figure that one out yet. It has to get better than this, yesterday i sat around all day thinking about how nice it would be get 30s, i need at least 6 my tolerance is high and my phone got shut off so there ya go, divine intervention, a sign just dont know...
 
Have you tried MMS?
I killed with this every sickness and my shoulder pain that hurts over 8 years.
And superisingly - had yesterday withdrawl - it works. It stopped not 100%, but 90-98% percent.
Taking this again after wake up - and no significant withdrawl symtoms.

Funny thing is MMS is only a chlorid. And metabolizes into oxygen and salt. And docks on everthing on what is not really from your body. Also bacteria, viruses, metalls etc.

Yes - may be this is the stone of wisdom.


PS. Nitrogen dioxide kills pain immediately. But it is not so cheap. Nitrogen dioxide is in whipped cream capsules.
 
I think I'm over my WD. I was able to eat a piece of pie and no aftermath to go with it. Feel so much better at this very moment. I don't really have any cravings. I really believe it's my will power to push through this and move on with my life.
 
Good to hear that Roxy, reminds me of the engine that could, I think I can, I think I can too....
 
Hey Roxy thanks for askin. I think I am thru physical stuff, it is more mental cravings, the chase, you know. I am trying stay busy took walk, the usual, had go get my phone turned back on which I did, then of course first text is friend wanting to know if I am looking, I can quote myself as saying "nah" wow 2nd time in matter of days, I think I really want it this time. Been reading different sites, this site is huge, and reassuring I feel like I am part of something. Hope I can sleep to nite but we will see, glad to hear you are coming through this too.
 
Thanks Roxy,

I will - I am just over the top I think. ATM I am in the choice of taking DPH too fall asleep or wait. 60 percent is for waiting. But 40 percent will sleep. But I am tickling my liver again with stuff. What I do not wan't really. Because I wan't the fucking noid or benzo as fast as possible away from my body so I have no body WD. I have always more problem with body WD than with mind WD.

If my body controls me (WD) - I am going nuts - because then I can not clearly think any more and I hate sweating. HA HA.
Argh it is a pitty. But talked to my father again today. He knows what I am doing ATM. He says come to me - I give you shelter.
Just take as little as possible with you. We can buy it new.

So I do not mind if I ran out of money anymore. Or if may be the government took to long to check up everything, that I can get my money.

Too much depths. Need total recovery. And that tooks time. No stress any more. So I am making an affidavit that I have nothing.
Then I can get only ~ max 1050 euro here in Germany for seven years. And then I am free. I the age of 42.

But may be it comes not that way. I do not know ATM. But I feel relatively save now. Winter outside? Never ever - I do survival things for years - including a night with -15 celcius outside. That was cold.
And if you are not prepared enough you die. Not what I want ATM :D
 
Life: Glad to hear that you are over the top atm. When I take dph sleep my restless legs act up a million times over, and I find my fingers going too? You sound like a survivor, from family, to drugs to the weather, good for you. Hang in there I am trying to too atm...
 
I'm so glad the 3 of us could join together in such a short amount of time and help each other through this.

Bono I'm so proud of you for turning down the offer! I know I'll have to delete all those numbers soon, block them from FB, etc. which the sad thing, they are all great people. Except the fact that they'll do anything to feed the demon to me.
 
Proud right back at ya Roxy. When I started reading what you wrote, I remembered a therapist in rehab awhile back once saying "you never have to feel this way again" I had been threw withdrawl a number of times and that sentence always stuck with me thinking to myself if I never use again I will not feel this bad, well how fast I forgot, or didn't care, whatever, but when I saw you write that it clicked again, and I am tired, I am beat, I am broken, but I still have the desire to never feel as bad as I have this past withdrawl. Thank you
 
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