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a message to herbavore

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So, a long time lurker here but not really ready or seeing any point in registering an account.

While drinking heavily, suffering from the worst depression in my life so far experienced, one sentence caught my eye in this thread: http://www.bluelight.org/vb/threads/734736-Where-to-talk-about-overdose

"I see suicide as wanting to kill life as it is being lived rather than wanting to kill the person living that life"

...which, as stupidly simple it might sound, meant a thousand rabbits worth for me in this situation. The right string was pulled or so...

The message would be even more simple: THANK YOU.

And I really had to do this because such ppl are worth being here anyway... Sorry for the mods for some extra trouble (after reading guidelines now when I already started this, naughty me...), but delivering a kind word or 2 in this case... I really had to.

With love,

pseudonym "NaN"
 
Thank you neversickanymore for moving this to appropriate forum. But now seeing it being here as a "pointless" (when it comes to discussing really) hail to someone who really deserved it, I had to bother making anon mail account (don't take it wrong way: severe depression makes every effort, or EXTRA effort even with small tasks sometimes unbearable). So I'll just take this an opportunity to introduce me and maybe elaborate about the problems I HAVE.

Even though I've spent a good amount of time playing superhuman or "running the pain off"... denial.

I'll reserve this msg for further introduction of myself and my problems, as TDS indicates. And yes, the dark side is the place really for these. Dunno if the thread title should stay when I'm going to pour myself all over you here soon anyways, but I think for now this is for the best. I just want to know he/she received my appreciation before that :)

Then we can make something up for the title to reflect my situation better or merge it to something relatively close.

HI BLUE PEOPLE! <3

BR,

"Not_a_Number"

(oh, and sorry for the flawed english here & there, not my native...)
 
Hi Nan,

There are all kinds of people here. People who are curious. People who are just want to spit out words of wisdom. People who are strong. People who are weak. People who are lost. People.
I for one, am all of the above. We all start our journey somewhere and personally I'd like to help out the community. There's a lot of wisdom here because a lot of people have taken psychedelics. That for one is one of the strongest mind altering experiences that anyone can have. It shakes your life to the very core. Look around and chat it up. You might find more meaning in your life that will deter you from existential and disillusioned thoughts.

I'm glad you found something that touched your heart and that helped you get yourself out of a hole. There's a time and a place for everything and there are no such things as coincidences or accidents. There's a reason why you were brought here.

Jai Ma.
 
Hey, NaN,( I love your user name). I'm really glad that you found that outlook helpful. It would have been very helpful for me to hear it some forty odd years ago when I was depressed and the suicidal thoughts was having only made me feel more a failure.

I really appreciate you taking the time and making the effort to reach out to me. It means a lot. I look forward to getting to know you better in the future and I hope you are feeling better right now.<3
 
More love for Herbivore here!

And welcome, NaN. I'm relatively new here, and I've found tremendous support. This is a very welcoming group. I'm sure you'll get more words of wisdom to help you.
 
Thanks for the love, everyone. Bluelight is a pretty amazing community. The love and support I have gotten on here during the aftermath of my son's death has been invaluable to me. I think one of the things that I value most about Bluelight is that people are always real. IRL we have to worry about everything from family dynamics and baggage to the perceptions of bosses, friends and everyone else. Here, because of the anonymity, there is raw exposure and out of that an intimacy and trust that we scarcely feel able to risk IRL. Add to that it is available 24/7--there is always someone awake.:)

<3<3<3
 
Thanks a lot everyone! It already made my day reading those kind replies through while waking up hangoverish :')

edit2: *snip* (introduction expired ;))

edit: oh, and for the topic: let's keep it as herbavore appreciation thread since it was never my intention to post on TDS, just to deliver my message :)
 
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herbavore, i don't recall my screen name several years ago, but my thread was called "losing my hand to demerol". you were a great help to me along with ocean & many others. Thanks again.
 
this thread incited me to epic dig back to the thread that turned it all around for me. herbavore thank you for being there..for all of us :)

thanks of course to all the TDS regulars - though it's a herbavore thread I just thought I'd share the epic line from effie that I'll never forget. you all are the best :)

effie said:
Take care and be kind to yourself. You don't have to "win" anything, it is okay just to live :)

<3
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effie was epic. I miss her being here. That quote reminds me of something I heard this woman say. She likes to play with common phrases and words and she said, "Go to Plan Be.";)
 
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