The EADD Sickness and Pain Thread ver Pain of the Wrist & Cock

[Shambles]

Continued from here.

I am in pain and have been for a week now. Specifically pain of the wrist and cock. Amazingly these things are unrelated - despite wrist pain being much like RSI. Not sure why I should have RSI in my left wrist cos I don't do much with it (no, not that either). I actually think I slept on it funny cos I just woke up with it one day but doesn't seem to be shifting. Perhaps a pinched or trapped nerve or the like. Kinda feels like that sort of thing. Gonna make appointment at GP's next week if it hasn't gone cos it doesn't even seem to be improving day to day. If anything it's getting worse. And it hurts

Cock pain is unfortunately unrelated afaik. At least I'd have an excuse if it weren't. Unusual number of unusually lengthy (fnarr, etc) spontaneous erections this week for no obvious reason whatsoever. Perhaps there's a nerve connecting wrist and cock with a happy end and a miserable end. I'd have to check the medical literature but suspect it may be a long shot. Not really a major issue but is surprising how uncomfortable a todger can get when over-exercised.

PS It pains me to be fucking 5th on the 'who posted' in this thread. Still, Pagey is 3rd, Shambles 1st so there's always some cunt worse off than yourself eh?

I'm quite often the top poster in a thread but that would be more down to textual diarrhoea than necessarily anything specific to any given thread. I just post a lot in whatever thread happens to be nearby :D

As for reasons to stay alive, I'm not actually very good at those. I suspect anything I came up with would sound trite. Trite or otherwise I'd much prefer you were to stay alive and I's strongly suspect I'm very far from alone in that. Look forward to your return

 

[Eveleivibe]

Sorry that you're in pain, Shambles. Hope you're better soon.
You sure you haven't been working out with your third leg n are having DOMS? (joke)/
Seriously I hope things improve.
Evey

 

[Eveleivibe]

Its fucking April Rob. Fail.

Appreciate the try.

I am worried about you, SHM, you know you can talk to me anytime, I'm sorry for what you're going through.
It may not seem like it now but there's always a reason to live, there'd be a lot of upset people if you'd died, including me.
Not sure if I ever gave you my mobile number or E-mail but if I have you're welcome to text/E-mail me anytime.

Thinking of you,
Evey xxxx

 

[ageingpartyfiend]

Riiigghhhhtttt. I'm looking for a reason to live. Can anybody give me one? Here's the score.

Had prostate cancer. Treatment saved my life but not sure that's a good thing. Treatment also left me with a massive difficulty to have sex (my favourite pasttime) and something called retrograde ejaculation. Look it up.

Now diagnosed with arteriosclerosis. Had to stop smoking, spliffs and all. Told I could lose my leg. Treatment? Not possible without a good chance of losing my leg. Can't walk more than 50 yards or so without extreme pain. Good job I drive like Ayrton Senna (insert non-dead driver here).

Two weeks ago my best friend died aged 31. Accidental OD. Could have been better without his dad ringing me up looking for someone to kill blame. Cut out of all official mourning, including the cremation I missed last week and only heard about via 3rd parties on Fuckbook.

So give me a reason to live. I'm betting you can't. Because I can't fucking find one.

Thank you.

PS It pains me to be fucking 5th on the 'who posted' in this thread. Still, Pagey is 3rd, Shambles 1st so there's always some cunt worse off than yourself eh?

reasons to live:

your partner

your mate

because the only certainty is change and that change may well be for the better

because you haven't yet had that pint with Shambles (me neither, but hey)

because you have much to offer to humanity

because you mighty have to go the heaven and play the harp while attempting to sit on a cloud

because they might discover the world's best ever drug the day after you kark it and you might be everlastingly tortured by that in some kind of between-the-dimensions existence that you are forced to inhabit by some ancient deity you randomly pissed off 32 years ago

because you are a stubborn fucker who would lose his self respect by opting out

fucking loads of reasons

 

[Shambles]

You sure you haven't been working out with your third leg n are having DOMS? (joke)

If it's my third leg just call me Oscar Pistorius.

because you haven't yet had that pint with Shambles (me neither, but hey)

All the reasons you gave are quite valid but this one is clearly the dealbreaker. SHM is not allowed to shuffle from mortal coils before that long-discussed pint (and a few spliffs) are shared. FACT!

I am prepared to take half the blame for not doing similar with your good self yet given you're virtually within walking distance of me. One of these days our paths will cross I'm sure - quite possibly in the vicinity of a pint and a spliff.

 

[Raasyvibe]

Riiigghhhhtttt. I'm looking for a reason to live. Can anybody give me one? Here's the score.

Had prostate cancer. Treatment saved my life but not sure that's a good thing. Treatment also left me with a massive difficulty to have sex (my favourite pasttime) and something called retrograde ejaculation. Look it up.

Now diagnosed with arteriosclerosis. Had to stop smoking, spliffs and all. Told I could lose my leg. Treatment? Not possible without a good chance of losing my leg. Can't walk more than 50 yards or so without extreme pain. Good job I drive like Ayrton Senna (insert non-dead driver here).

Two weeks ago my best friend died aged 31. Accidental OD. Could have been better without his dad ringing me up looking for someone to kill blame. Cut out of all official mourning, including the cremation I missed last week and only heard about via 3rd parties on Fuckbook.

So give me a reason to live. I'm betting you can't. Because I can't fucking find one.

Thank you.

PS It pains me to be fucking 5th on the 'who posted' in this thread. Still, Pagey is 3rd, Shambles 1st so there's always some cunt worse off than yourself eh?

I think the answer is spirit. It is through these difficulties, that the human spirit can really emerge. Such difficulties can really bring the best out of people, and those who manage to show happiness despite heavy adversary are the ones who impress me the most.

For instance, at work I had to deal with some elderly people. One woman, 90 Years old, various hip op's, can't walk very far and that's with a frame, widow'd, lives alone, can't drive. Yet she still manages to do what she loves doing, singing in a church choir - as well as other activities such as reading books and discussing them in a book club.

I think it's so amazing, that someone despite all these difficulties which us young folk would be aghast at - can show happiness and love life. Perhaps happier than many able people I know.

Life throws many challenges at us in different stages, you've enjoyed many years being a young healthy shagging machine... now it's time to face another challenge, develop as a person for it and become even more beautiful

PS - And life without smoking, spliffs and sex is actually quite bareable. Us Christians have to live this way regardless. So quit moaning!

 

[Shambles]

I must say I agree with all of that, Raas. I do find it inspiring to think of people who have it far worse than I ever have just getting on with life whatever has been thrown at them. People deal with the most horrific and unimaginable situations daily and knowing that they can helps me to believe that I can too.

 

[Green Taffy]

Your friend would have wanted you to live, SHM.

 

[Josh]

Letter from the hospital today, my capsule endo came back clear, so the lingering doubt I might have Crohn's disease is lifted and my record can be changed from "indeterminate colitis" to "ulcerative colitis"

 

[F.U.B.A.R.]

Talking of Shambles' cock (which he was doing for some reason in the first post), I've just had an op on me cock to remove an unsightly brown melanoma type growth I've had for about 20 years. Didn't cause me any problems, apart from making me rather unwilling to flop it out at all and sundry if the mood took me. I now have an even more unsightly wound the size of a penny on the underside - which is surprisingly not at all painful, but being on methadone I don't tend to feel that type of pain much. It's a bugger to get a bandage on though, and getting a stiffy can be a little sore. Typically though, because the old feller's out of action for a while, I want to fuck just about anything that moves! Just thought I'd share that with you - but don't expect any pictures.....

 

[Shambles]

No pix?!? Spoilsport

In case anybody was overwhelmingly concerned about me cock, it's much better now you'll be relieved to hear. Back to just lolling about a bit and not over-exerting itself. Wrist has also improved but still really rather ouchy if I put weight on it in the "wrong" way. Anybody got any ideas or suggestions as to why that may be? If I make a fist and put weight on my knuckles there's no pain but if I open my hand and put weight on the heel of my palm pain shoots right up my arm and is especially painful pain at that - same type of nervy pain. As such I'm still thinking perhaps a pinched or trapped nerve only it's maybe worked a lil loose? Not really sure how such things work so if anybody else does...

Letter from the hospital today, my capsule endo came back clear, so the lingering doubt I might have Crohn's disease is lifted and my record can be changed from "indeterminate colitis" to "ulcerative colitis"

Excellent news, Josh

Unless it isn't excellent news - I can't say 'ulcerative colitis' sounds like an improvement on 'indeterminate colitis' but can only presume colitis comes in forms even lower down the desirability scale than ulcerative. The mind boggles. As does the bum. "All clear" is generally a Good Thing so - combined with the smiley - am going with this being excellent news.

 

[Uncle Robert]

Would be cool if shm's ban was momentarily lifted so he can let us all know he's not done anything too stupid

 

[Shambles]

You can check on any recent activity on SHM's or any other member's account through their profile afaik. I do believe he was online and reading threads last night - or at least somebody on that account was and I'd assume it was the man himself. I'm sure he wouldn't act on things said above, but it's horrid to see anybody going through such a rough patch. Does seem to have been one shitty even piled on top of another for him of late. I'm sure he'll get through it though - tough auld boot is SHM. In the nicest possible way

 

[Eveleivibe]

Can opiate addiction mess up how one experiences pain?
Any pain is 100x worst than before. I find waxing torture where as before it was ok.
I've had a tattoo coloured in n found it agonisingly painful. I went out of there n it was so painful it was unreal.
Then I went into a pharmacy n tried to order N+, the pharmacist recognised me n called me into this room n started asking me questions like was I still on the suboxone. I burst out crying and never ran out so fast in my life, felt so humiliated. I just wanted ONE pack, that's all. one pack.

Ughhhhhhh

Evey

 

[Sammy G]

You do know that the sub would block the codeine, don't you Eve?

Sorry you had to go through that, but it's for the best that you weren't served. You'd only be wasting money.

 

[Eveleivibe]

You do know that the sub would block the codeine, don't you Eve?

Sorry you had to go through that, but it's for the best that you weren't served. You'd only be wasting money.

not if I stopped taking the suboxone for a few days. I get it weekly. I know it's sounds daft but I just kept thinking, they've taken my codeine off me again n I hadn't even had it, I didn't feel in any control whatsoever, so I bought some wine as I thought' well they can't stop me having that. I'm in my 30s but I feel like a child. I tried talking to a counsellor about that but then I just told the counsellor what they wanted to hear n ended the sessions as she felt I was doing ok. I need control in my life and I keep doing things to try and get it. Irrational stuff like spending money, taking codeine, drinking. I just feel like a total screw up lol. That will please some people though haha. Oh well no one's fault but my own n I need to take responsibility for it.

I wanted that codeine but in a way I'm glad that I didn't have it, does that make sense?
I went round the pharmacies this week getting EMLA cream n it brought back a lot of memories.
Does it sound stupid that I actually missed going round the pharmacies and online pharmacies to obtain it?
I was in my recovery group today and just went completely blank and walked out to get it. They were all talking about how GREAT it feels to be sober.

I'm going to taper off the suboxone I've decided.

Evey

 

[Shambles]

Can opiate addiction mess up how one experiences pain?

It most certainly can and most certainly does. There's even a name for it - it's a recognised medical condition - although the name escapes me. I was diagnosed with it a while back. It basically means that people who use opiates/opioids for prolonged periods become much more sensitive to pain than normal. And cos you're on opiates it's much harder to actually deal with that pain effectively - your receptors are already saturated so there's no room at the inn, as it were. It's a shitty thing when you become hypersensitised to pain (I'm sure the proper name for it involved with word 'hypersensitivity' but cam't recall the words either side of it ). Unfortunately the only "cure" is to reduce and actually quit opies for long enough for your receptors to regenerate and recover. Until then pain just hurts more than it used to and you kinda have to learn to live with it if you can't quit

As Sammy said, you subbiez will block the codeine. In fact taking codeine on top would probably put you into instant withdrawal which is not a pleasant thing at all. Just gotta put up with it, I'm afraid. OTC painkillers like paracetamol, aspirin and ibuprofen should help. Maybe not aspirin after a tattoo though as it thins the blood and I'm guessing you're a bit delicate of arm as it's essentially been repeatedly stabbed for 3h. Might make any bruising worse too. Paracetamol and ibuprofen should be fine though and will take the edge off if nothing else.

I'm sure the pain will be worth it once you're all rested and healed up - look forward to seeing the results if you can post 'em when ready

EDIT: You do realise Suboxone is a massively more potent analgesic than codeine, yes? It provides vastly more pain relief than codeine will at any dose. I think this may be your addiction talking. It will do that - any excuse to try to convince you that actually it's codeine you need not your medication. Don't listen to it - Suboxone is a better painkiller and you don't want to mess up your recovery

 

[Eveleivibe]

So I am hyper sensitised to pain then? Its not a placebo affect, my mind playing tricks on me? Fuck!

I had my tattoo today for 3 hours then i went to my recovery n it stang really bad. I thought I need paracetamol for this n just couldn't respond to anything people were saying. They asked me if i was ok i just looked at them thinking well i may as well get nurofin plus n was having this argument going on inside me.

I nearly burst into tears so I quickly got out of there, walked to the pharmacy n this bloke recognised me who gave me subs once.

Damn fkn eyesight prob i could have recognised him n not ordered them.

I'm starting to think that pain is a trigger.

Anyway I think I'm going to stop going to the recovery group. I'm not an addict like them. I've never been an addict. I wanted the codeine today it wasn't some force taking over me. I take responsibility for it. I wanted it.

I wanted ONE pack of n+, to hold them in my hands, to feel the packet, see the lovely red box, to have them.

Alcohol isn't the same as opiates. It makes me make a fool of myself.

Alcohol will this horrible pain away. It's fkn hurting bad n I've got to take the clingfilm off yet n clean it, got some baby wipes for that.

I'm a fkn stupid cow why'd I bother getting this sleeve n putting myself through this pain.

I bought SIX tubes of EMLA cream but it didn't numb it enough.

I used to have laser treatment the lot at one time n was ok.

What the hell have I done??????

Am i always going to be sensitive to pain like this????

Sorry for moaning on. Time for tea!

Evey

 

[masaz]

Ahhh you'll be reet Tattoos wreck, obviously. If it makes you feel better, one of my old mates is a big manly man trucker type and passed out having his done I've not noticed the increased pain related to codeine use myself but then once you've been stabbed in the median nerve with a needle nothing much compares apart from the really bad stuff.

Pain will soon go don't worry, just take care of it. Just try relax. Is what I do when I'm in pain and helps to an extent. You're not stupid and pharmacies have recognised me before, fortunately I was just like 'no, I wasn't in here yesterday' despite wearing exactly the same clothes. Have kinda felt the same tho, trying to buy Linctus in pharmacies. I just look too young. Hate being rejected/turned away.

Basically take Sammy and Shammy's advice, they know their shit. I just know tattoo pain but in a way I kinda like it, and nearly fell asleep having my calf tattoo done.

Speaking personally pain-wise, my big toe is still giving me shit. I know that's utterly minor compared to most of you lot, but I can't tell if it's broken or just badly bruised and it's making me walk on the side of my foot which now also hurts. Got a huge blood blister under it I wanna pop but then it'd get infected and I'd get lost on the way to hospital and die or something. Should probably go to doctor. Can't get my Tramadol script (for plantar fascitis) for another week or so because the doctor I saw is insistent I'm a drug seeker and looked at me like shit the entire time, despite the other doctor having prescribed me it. Only opiate-y thing that's ever worked for pain for me. Bastards. Gonna ask to swap to a different painkiller, prob codeine cos I don't wanna get addicted to Tramadol and coming off benzos there's the additional seizure risk.

/ramble

 

[Eveleivibe]

ow ffs now my stomachs hurting because I'm constipated again. One of these fkn days I think