4-aco-dmt @53mg, first psychedelic, dissatisfaction.
last night I have taken my first psychedelic ever, after stumbling on 4-aco-dmt fumarate (from a trustable vendor). My drug experience has been limited to weed for the most part. I was aware that 50mg+ is considered very high for a first timer(I'm also 160lb, 5'10), but I figured I want this to be a mind shattering experience, seeing stories about people seeing entities and awesome hallucinations on half that dose but what I got was completely different.
Setting: my dark messy room
T+0.5
The effects came on pretty quickly, which was surprising since I thought it'd take some time at least, first thing that happened was paranoia, I was scared of the window and jerky motor functions. I was scared of the open window so i struggled to get up and close it (the room was also dark)
T+30m
Listening to the music, crawled up on my bed, some psychological effects are there, blurry vision
T+1h-2.5h
The effects have peaked (onset probably came quickly because I was fasting) I started seeing some fractals on the wall, fractals all over the walls in my bedroom, even in the dark, i closed my eyes and could see some closed eye hallucinations, but not really that visual. It was because of the music i'm listening to mostly, it was supposed to alter your brainwaves.
Then the trip took a very dark side, my body was jerking and convulsing constantly, so i crawled up on my bed with my arm between my legs and whenever I close my eyes i saw fractals of skulls and skeletons (similar to the ones in the mexican festival of the dead) I was scared at this point and all i was thinking was "I want to go back", even remembered what terence mckenna said about DMT, and how he always wants to go back midway in the trip.
I was then struck by an immense force, or a microseizure, not sure which. It's something that happens to me from time to time normally whenever I am in excess awe, sort of speak, but this one was different, it was far more powerful than the ones i normally get. It started at my feet, this immense force, an energy that I felt was almost dragging me or pulling me down, then it moved to my waist and after that it reached my head and all my music turned into a blurry noise and he fractal vision was shattered, this happened to me twice. At each time I was hoping this would be my break through but it didn't happen. Felt extremely depressed at the time aswell.
T+3h
No more visuals, closed or otherwise, but I was still convulsing abit and had some nausea, i was disappointed because I expected much more. I struggled to stand up, go to the bathroom, I looked at myself in the mirror and was surprised to see everything in HD, now I understand what Shulgin said when he talked about seeing colors for the first time on mescaline, it was very odd. I also realised that I had completely lost my ability to speak, I simple could not string together sentence or even words coherently and all of this and my pupils were not fully dilated so I'm guessing this was not a 100% strength trip
T+4h
Able to walk and talk now, (abit messy though) euphoric mood, laughter. snuffed 15mg, did nothing. Thinking about trying 100mg next trip (heroic dose, I am aware), or 75mg with rue because this really didn't go the distance for me.
last night I have taken my first psychedelic ever, after stumbling on 4-aco-dmt fumarate (from a trustable vendor). My drug experience has been limited to weed for the most part. I was aware that 50mg+ is considered very high for a first timer(I'm also 160lb, 5'10), but I figured I want this to be a mind shattering experience, seeing stories about people seeing entities and awesome hallucinations on half that dose but what I got was completely different.
Setting: my dark messy room
T+0.5
The effects came on pretty quickly, which was surprising since I thought it'd take some time at least, first thing that happened was paranoia, I was scared of the window and jerky motor functions. I was scared of the open window so i struggled to get up and close it (the room was also dark)
T+30m
Listening to the music, crawled up on my bed, some psychological effects are there, blurry vision
T+1h-2.5h
The effects have peaked (onset probably came quickly because I was fasting) I started seeing some fractals on the wall, fractals all over the walls in my bedroom, even in the dark, i closed my eyes and could see some closed eye hallucinations, but not really that visual. It was because of the music i'm listening to mostly, it was supposed to alter your brainwaves.
Then the trip took a very dark side, my body was jerking and convulsing constantly, so i crawled up on my bed with my arm between my legs and whenever I close my eyes i saw fractals of skulls and skeletons (similar to the ones in the mexican festival of the dead) I was scared at this point and all i was thinking was "I want to go back", even remembered what terence mckenna said about DMT, and how he always wants to go back midway in the trip.
I was then struck by an immense force, or a microseizure, not sure which. It's something that happens to me from time to time normally whenever I am in excess awe, sort of speak, but this one was different, it was far more powerful than the ones i normally get. It started at my feet, this immense force, an energy that I felt was almost dragging me or pulling me down, then it moved to my waist and after that it reached my head and all my music turned into a blurry noise and he fractal vision was shattered, this happened to me twice. At each time I was hoping this would be my break through but it didn't happen. Felt extremely depressed at the time aswell.
T+3h
No more visuals, closed or otherwise, but I was still convulsing abit and had some nausea, i was disappointed because I expected much more. I struggled to stand up, go to the bathroom, I looked at myself in the mirror and was surprised to see everything in HD, now I understand what Shulgin said when he talked about seeing colors for the first time on mescaline, it was very odd. I also realised that I had completely lost my ability to speak, I simple could not string together sentence or even words coherently and all of this and my pupils were not fully dilated so I'm guessing this was not a 100% strength trip
T+4h
Able to walk and talk now, (abit messy though) euphoric mood, laughter. snuffed 15mg, did nothing. Thinking about trying 100mg next trip (heroic dose, I am aware), or 75mg with rue because this really didn't go the distance for me.
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