opiods, benzos...
Gosh, alcohol, benzos (long acting) and heroin. They are all painful, but heroin because it is so short acting is easy relatively with a realistic taper.
I used to take xanax almost daily, but only at night and never developed a dependence. I once mistakenly got clonazolam and boy was I hooked, and the PAWS lasted for months. Thats probably what got me started on alcohol. Makes you feel like shit all the time and yet you still need it. At 1 PM and you hands are shaking and blood pressure goes through the roof. I'm alcohol is difficult to get addicted to, but hard to kick.
Beprenorphine is a whole nother ball of wax. It's a super powerful partial agonist getting off that is a nightmare.
So I'm gonna say heroin IS the most addictive, but certainly not the hardest to give up. There are other opioids and benzos that really do a number on your brain chemistry. IF your going to do a drug, stick with the shortest acting ones.
I hear ya buddy
gotta say ... opioids are the most addictive, but benzos have the worst WD and detox. I've been through easily 5 g Bu-Fent, 100g U-447700, and a bunch of others. Yeah, not a high point in my life. Kinda died a couple times- it SUCKS to wake up surrounded by first responders and trying to figure out what to tell the kids. I did indeed kick them. But can't have any access to any cuz then they are gone. So, physical stuff and PWS all gone for more than a year... but there is not enough willpower in the world to keep me away if it is handy.
And stimulants, which I mostly can't live without. But at least I'm not cooking my own meth or anything ... like I did as a child (well past the statute of limitations now; I'm in my mid 50s). Unrestricted access to as much as I could make... ouch. Luckily I could only make a few g at a time and had to get my shit together for personal and professional reasons or I'd be dead. Luckily, I have access to enough welbutrin that I use that and usually stay away from other stims. If only because it blocks the effects of anything below 20 mg dexamphet.
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WORST detox/withdrawl was without a doubt benzos. Which in and of themselves, I truly can't stand on their own. But for a few months I used etizolam to counteract speed/cathinone jitteryness and insomnia, and so got inadvertently and powerfully dependent.
It took most of 6 months, under a physician's care, to get the fuck off of them. The first week was the worst- I had to titrate UP to an effective amount of dizepam, no more than 1x2mg tab every 2 hours. Absolute hell. At the worst of it I didn't sleep for 2 days and not even heroic and usually lethal amounts of opioids (5 mg BuF every 1/2 to 1 hour) barely took the edge off. wow. now that I've written it out, that is truly amazing, and not in a good way.
And I'm working on that AGAIN; same reason. Strangely, etizolam does not fog my head like diazepam or other common prescription benzos- I actually can remember things even on high-ish doses, yet 5mg of valium has a 50/50 chance of ruining my memory of the time under the influence.