RCs my strange addiction to mxe o.O

[Predecessor]

Ok y'all I want your unbiased opinions on this strange addiction I am currently in. I want the pros / cons of what I am doing as well as long term use hazards. 1 year ago I was drinking 1/2 pint of vodka per day to get through the struggles. I was able to graduate from college with a business degree in 4 years and I will start graduate school next month (aug) for my MBA. Here is how my life of drugs has been the last year

Until 1 month ago drinking 1/2 pint vodka for 4 years per day. Cold turkey
Until 3 weeks ago I was smoking H for 4 weeks (minimal withdrawals) cold turkey
Pot off and on (passed last drug test last week)

Now I find myself plugging, yes the bum rush, 20mg mxe 3-4 times daily and doing the zoomed dose of 70mg plug at 9pm every night. This has been going on for the last month and my life has never been better. When I am sober I feel amazing and happy and when I'm on mxe I feel the same but a lil enhanced (brain creativity) . Please message me or post the negatives with dosing mxe on a daily basis for a long period of time if there are any. I am also on lexipro 20mg daily followed by gabapentin 800mg a day. So far I haven't had any negative side effects when I miss a day of mxe which I have been doing for a momth now. My future is bright (grad school) and I even have a sales job at ADT. Should I cut down or is this antidepressant self medication have some clout to it. I'm trying to change my brain chemistry to where I'm always feeling this way all the time by continuous mxe plug throughout the day and hopefully my DNA becomes accustomed. Ahhhhh sounds crazy as fu k hahahahahahaha try and talk me out of this theory please.\\


i also have 3 strips of real L - heard that L can help eliminate addition within the brain to a certain degree should this be an option ? ANYTHING !!

 

[coelophysis]

It's a honey moon phase. I spent a year on MXE believing it was some sort of cure to all my problems. And it felt like a rather benign crutch to be honest. But I grew out of it to an extent. Didn't need it every day and so on. Not because anything bad happened, I guess I just sort of got bored with it and slowly dropped my use down until I was at once in a blue moon status. I never felt any negative effects when stopping, nor do I feel like it has done any harm to mind or body. I feel like it shed amazing new perspectives on my life and helped me make decisions I needed to make that resulted in me being in a better life situation. But still, since it's so new, none of us really know what prolonged use is REALLY doing to us.

 

[Predecessor]

^ cure for cancer HAH

 

[Predecessor]

anyone else? common MXE isn't a new RC

 

[Ksa]

I don't see any problem with your use, looks legit. Something can always go wrong of course.

Also, keep in mind that the human body is a piece of shit that keeps trying to resist well-being and restore normality. You may develop tolerance.

 

[Predecessor]

UPDATE: zero anxiety or depression. Gave me the strength to study for the GMAT and now I start graduate school in TN 2 weeks from today. mXe is Gods gift to us !! No noticeable side effects except dry mouth and raised pulse at varying times. All seems well so far, I will update next month

 

[DexyDevil]

Hey Predecessor, I replied to your last PM but your message box is full. Clear it out and get back at me buddy. : )

 

[dumbstruck]

I'd be very curious to hear how the last sixth months have gone for you, Predecessor. Has your use continued to benefit your life with no apparent detriment? Has your dosing regimen changed or has tolerance been a factor?

 

[smashpast]

LSD helped me to understand, that I have to take responsibility for a thing I am maybe 45% responsible for:

My alcoholism. In therapy I learned and strong believe now: Alcoholism is 30% genes (my father and grandfather and grandmother (father-side) where alcoholics), 30% (emotional) education and the rest your own behavior. I don't drink anymore (not a single drop) since then. Good help was Olivier Ameisen ('The end of my addiction', good read, baclofen endevourer).

I think your MXE addiction is much better and healthier than drinking.

 

[spacejunk]

MXE is addictive, no?
RC addiction is hazardous for many reasons - one of them being difficulty to reliable source, or your source disappearing, leaving you in the lurch.
Now, I know this is an old thread....
But I think the bigger risk here is the mental health effects of mxe.

Isn't regular use of dissociatives linked to delusional thinking?
Even psychosis?

As an "anti-depressant", for those that put mxe in that class, I'm pretty sure it is intended to be taken occasionally. Not every day.

 

[Predecessor]

Wow I completely forgot I wrote this thread, : ) yes the regime has continued with minimal setbacks (temporarily short term memory loss) but that's about it! In fact I have lowered the times I do it each day and have not increased the dosage much , about 5 mg per dose! This truly is a life changing compound.

 

[Felonious Monk]

Good to hear. I'm actually a little surprised you're still taking it. My experience was more similar to Laika's, in that I was using almost daily for a period but then quit fairly abruptly, as I felt I'd gotten out of what I was meant to and continued use was no longer beneficial. Maybe you just have more to get out of it than we did?

I remember reading that MXE was originally synthesized partially as an anti-depressant, and there's been real success using it as such. So my only advice would be to use as little as possible if you're planning on using it long-term.