Tommyboy, you did less dope when you were kicked out of your house. Maybe if you move out on your own you will spend your money on bills and shit instead of dope. It's like living at home leaves you with no sense of responsibility.
Just my .02$
Yea, it's never going to work out living at home, even if I'm clean. I'm debating going to rehab just so I can stay at the house until I find something else, because they just gave me the ultimatum since they don't believe I stopped. I told my mom to leave me alone for a few days since I needed to kick a little, then the next day she was saying she didn't believe me because she read that I should be in severe withdrawals, as if she could tell by looking at me if I was in them or not.
Hmmm, I haven't gotten out of bed in 2 days, haven't eaten a thing and they definitely noticed since I wasn't at the dinner table, and I have a blanket over the top half of my body in a 90 degree room, while the bottom half of my body is dripping with sweat, but
you can
tell I'm not withdrawing. Granted I took some suboxone to ease the withdrawals so I am getting some sleep but half the symptoms were there on the first 2 days of taking the subs. Now my body adjusted to it and the plan is to do either 4-2-1-1 or 4-2-2 with the last sub strip after doing 8mg then 6mg the first two days.
I may also say fuck it and take my last dose saturday, get high monday, then go to rehab and detox there, medically or not. My other plan (I've had a lot of time to think) is to take my next paycheck and just go upstate for a mini-vacation with it, accomplishing basically the same thing as I would by going to rehab. To me, the only thing I got out of rehab was 30 days clean and learning a lot more about dope for when I got out, so I would rather just go upstate and hang out with friends for a month and stay clean during that time, both since I would want to, and because I would be in areas with no drug scene.
Edit: boy do these subs back me up. I was just using my favorite public restroom and managed to clog it up with a suboxone shit. I felt it coming one since I couldn't sleep well due to pains in my organ areas, and after a large cup of coffee I knew the big one was ready for departure, so headed to the nicest public restroom around and lit it up. The worst part was having to tell the woman at the front desk that the toilet was clogged, then she was saying it all loud to the rest of the workers, and apparently the custodian is on vacation so they won't have the backup custodian in for another 4 hours. Oops.