Your first ever post on Bluelight.

It's hard to do, I have friends who smoke everyday. One has recently begun to 'ease off'. He's not giving it up, however he is smoking less. He's playing a game with himself, setting himself a goal and making sure he makes it. He used to smoke 4 -5 times daily and now he's down to 1, by saying to himself. I will only have 2 a day this week and using will power and friends, he does it, then moves on to a lower amount.
I don't know if this would work for you, everyone's different, but if you really want to slow down, it's worth a try.

Having friends who want to go home when you’re still going hard.
Having to buy like 6 water bottles every time you go out because you keep forgetting where you put the last one.
Spending your cab money home on excessive amounts of water.
People who sit on the dance floor wasting valuable space.
People who exist that waste valuable space.
Uni work that never gets done
Failing three outta four subjects last semester....swearing you won’t ever do that again. Doing it again.
Leaving a lecture early cos you’re STARVING.....tripping over in front of nearly 500 people...oh boy.
People in tutorials that have done all the work and know all the answers.
Having your two best friends dog you for a night out with their boyfriends.
Not having a boyfriend with which you could dog your friends.
Having your car break down and not having money to fix it because you need the money for Gatecrasher.
Public transport.
Having $4 in your wallet, 40c in your bank and KILLING for a smoke.
Parents who don’t understand that 9 o clock Sunday morning is NOT the ideal time to mow the lawn and vaccuum the house (where’s the respect??)
Speed bombs.
Girls in white dresses with blue satin sashes
Snowflakes that stay on your nose and eyelashes
Silverwhite winters that melt into spring.
These are a few of the shittiest things.....
And then the weekend comes and you forget why you were shitty. It’s all good.
Oh yeah...and being a greenlighter......dammit.....bring on the blue....

Isn’t it amazing how a pill can change your life, or more to the point how it can change your perceptions that ultimately will have an impact on your life. This wonderful pill of ours has had a great impact on me in many ways – it has opened me up to many things that I was not aware of. I am new to the scene and maybe these ramblings you’ve all heard before – but it’s something I’m letting out more for myself than anything I guess.
Our ultimate goal in life is to make ourselves happy – we employ many means to achieve this goal – some successful others not, and so our experimental nature is born. Ultimate happiness for many is deeply embedded within the secret of life, and the secret to life is? For many this becomes a complex question and its here were many people will turn to institutions such as religion for guidance. Religion I have tried, while for many it posses the answers they seek, for me it did not unlock many mysteries but did help me broaden my mind. Recently I have delved further into many teachings, such a Buddhism that has helped me understand many things within myself. So the secret to life is? Well I believe it is different for everyone but for me it boils down to one simple thing – being content

Being content you ask? Can it be so simple, well contentment is not an easy thing to obtain itself. I do believe that contentment does lead to happiness and therefore worth obtaining. Society teaches us through many medians (i.e. TV, Magazines, Clubs, Friends, Education etc) that there are certain goals we need to achieve certain paths we need to follow. It’s this that I believe causes allot of our unhappiness, goals that we think we have to achieve and until we achieve them we are not truly satisfied. This is the point were I had reached and it was eating me inside, until I got to that socially acceptable point for my age I was not going to be happy. The catch 22 was that I didn’t like those points were all my friends were, it wasn’t me, but yet it was eating at me. I wanted it but I didn’t.

The night I dropped my first pill opened my mind and spirit and I explored areas I never knew existed. Deep within I looked, who I was, what I had, where I was going, what I wanted. This continued through into the next day, and I know many people might not like being scattered, I actually enjoyed it on this occasion. I realised many things that day. My divorce has always eaten me up, but I broke it down and realised that my pain was not seeing my son everyday, having the privilege that so many parent take for granted. I know understand the important thing for me is not how much I don’t have him, but making the most of the time I do. I also realised that material things mean nothing to me but what is important is friends – the people around me is what makes me happy – and that includes all the new Bluelighter friends I have made. I looked at what I had, put it into perspective – shit what isn’t there to be happy about, sure there are many things I would like to have, but I can easily live without them and therefore they do not rule my life.

Anyway I have rambled enough shit, thanks for listening
In the end this my thankyou to Bluelight, without it and it's support I would never have dropped in the first place. I owe my new found understanding and happiness to you all!!
Hugzz to you all

I figured that seeing as I swam in a puddle of bluelighters for a good chunk of my weekend, I should register, or something

Thanks to all you people for turning up and being fabulous - it was certainly the uh, loudest -cough- welcoming to a new place I've ever had. Not to mention the best puddle I've ever borne witness to. I think Shaun (applesbliss) suggested we just grab a bunch of people, some good trance, Steve's room and just have a Puddle Party. Either way..
ENCORE!!!