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[unicorn83]

life is too short not to take risks, you said
while we where sitting, i sipping my ususal double whiskey and coke, and you, your double vodka redbull.
and i took that risk, i risked my heart my life for you.

three months of love i never knew existed.
holding hands every chance we got,
hugging or kissing in each elevator we walked into
we woke up together we slept together
we ate together we cried together

but is it for real?

now is the time to find out now it the time the truth will reveal itself.

i won't see you for a while we'll be a six hour flight away.

will it last? will we be strong enough.

everyone goes on about how men cheat, but i've cheated before.

with you it's different other men don't appeal to me anymore, or is it just men? i know i love you but that lingering feeling of 'he's going to hurt me too' won't stop bothering me i dont want to regret loving you i dont want to regret needing you.

why am i so scared of losing you? am i that pathetic? am i that needy? or am i just so in love with u that i cant bare the thought of ever losing you.

is it the sexual abuse i got from my ex? or is the mental abuse i got from my other ex? is it the fact that they also both cheated on me right infront of me without me realising it? or is it the fact that im so confused angry ashamed and guilty about the things i've done with my life that i dont feel like i deserve you?

should i have never taken that risk and fell in love with you? should i have sorted my life out before getting involved with u? but if i hadn't would i have missed out on the greatest love of my life

or should i just chill the fuck out and enjoy being with you!

 

[mr_fluffy]

aahhh, ye olde inner monologue. a sign of a strong mind is the ability to question itself. it seems the problem is with u. too much baggage.

all that comes to mind is, if you love somebody, set them free...

a good piece, it takes guts to bare your soul to strangers.

 

[harraser]

Not about the writting: OH MY MOTHERFUCKING GAWD!!!! babe yours is a name id given up hope on seeing here again... i dunno where you went or where you are or whats been happening with you, but honey, please please please please PLEASE drop me a line and tell me all about how you are and everything that ive missed and stuff. its been so long... i missed you love.

About the writing: Well hun, despite the huge gap in time, it seems like youre in the same situation, more or less, that you were in last time i heard from you. and ill say what i always said; you cant let your fear get in the way of what could be. follow your heart and, while it may not all be ok in the end, it will be a lot more interesting along the way. nothing hurts more than might have beens.

let go.

-love ant

 

[unicorn83]

well what can i say im still around! u'll still find me here five years down the line posting a different subject but with the same story line well i think i have the right to think the way i think my first guy sexually abused me the second mentally both cheated on me, one of them was telling me he wants to spend the rest of his life with whilst fucking another girl! what can i do?!?!?! heheh pick a nice guy for once maybe!

anyways i replied to ur PM so ud better reply back!

 

[frostyangel]

beautiful.. good luck.. i'm feeling most of what you have written..