You know you can count on me for something mindless...... (it's a survey folks)

The name you were given? ______________ ______________

Do you have a sense of who you want to be? A sense, yes.

Does the thought of your death scare you? Am I Afraid of death before I'm ready, yes. In 20 years or more? No.

Do you believe in reincarnation? For sure.

Are you family oriented? Yes.

Do you celebrate holidays? Holidays, yes. For Christian holiday reasons? No.

Are you one to focus on what you want, and go after it? Hmmmm, yeah.....I think I am.

Are you listening to music? Actually, no. I took my headphones off just a few minutes ago b/c my ears hurt from wearing headphones almost all day everyday.

Would people consider you, emotionally, weak? Some might.

Are you, physically, weak? Some would say yes.

Do you believe every rumor has some truth to it? Psh, no.

Do you ask a lot of questions? hahah Yeah. I am a curious person. And if I don't know something, I ask b/c I want to know.

Are you self-centered? I fear I am becoming that way. I was selfless for too long and am worrying that my new bestie might think I talk about myself too much

Are you out to prove something to the world? No.

Are you an only child? Nope.

Do you have a favorite movie? I have about ten of them.

Grilled cheese, or tacos? Depends on the mood.

Do you have a "best friend" or several close friends? Both.

Is there one person you confide in? Yes.

Are you confident? Not really.

Would people consider you 'cocky'? What is funny is that some would and have said I am.....but if you know me- you tell me? :D (I'm not.)

Do you have a favorite song? I have several but if I had to choose a favorite as the most impactful in my life, I would choose Strange Fruit.

Do you cuss often? Fuck yes I do. I'm trying to stop that shit.

Have you ever felt left out? Sure! Who hasn't?

Do you do your best? Yes.

Do you give in easily? Working on this.

Can you walk a straight line, not using your arms to balance yourself? Haven't tried in a while but I doubt it.

Do people approve of you? Guess you'd have to ask people.

Are you good with parents?Actually, yeah. I am. Which is pretty great.

Do things really get better in time?Yes. They do.

Can you play any musical instruments? Hell no. I have no talents.

Do you tend to be in the middle of drama often? I try to avoid drama.

If so, do you think you may bring it on yourself? No???

Ever been in denial about anything? Yes.

Is there someone you can tell everything to, and they love you anyways? Yes. My Clint will always love me.
I try to only have friendships that are meaningful and involve no judgment.

Have you made a lot of mistakes? Yep!

Do you learn from your mistakes, or do the same thing time and time again? I have repeated the same mistakes before- but I am learning.

Ever felt like no one understood you? Yes, many times. And then most recently when I felt that way, I met a kindred Spirit.

Do you believe in being weak, in order to become strong?
I don't see things as weak to become stronger but do believe there is strength in knowing when to let things go, choosing your battles wisely, letting someone believe they are "stronger" if need be. (if that makes any friggin' sense)

Do you ever "baby talk"? Yes! I have a baby kitty who needs me to baby talk her!

Are you willing to help someone, who wouldn't help you? Yes.

Do you judge people because of their pasts? No. I try to not judge people- and while I can't claim to be innocent of that always, I usually don't judge on a past....I catch myself judging people on occasion on the present. (This sounds bad but I am thinking of a little clique of girls inparticular I have recently caught myself judging )

Ever felt like it was you against the world? Sure....

Is there a difference in being in love, and loving someone? Absolutely. Both are beautiful and powerful.

 

ughhh i know that headphone pain all too well. use ear buds when you're just listening to music and not at work. also, i've found that a little bit of cloth between the headphones and the ears can help out sometimes too, you just might have to turn up your headset some so it's not muffled.

 

I will do mine in the comments, like the first survey...

1) Name I was given: Rachamim Ra'anan Ben Ami, which is Hebrew and means, "Very Compassionate and Inspired Son of my People."

2) Do I have a sense of who I want to be? Ina sense, yes (hahaha). Um, I think all interesting people should always be a work in progress, to that end I suppose I am only a tad bit interesting though I do possess a sense of what I would like that work to be. I want to be very old with dozens of grandsons, typical Middle Eastern desire.

3) Am I scared of death? I never have been but in the last 2 years I find myself fearing a death from Hepatitis-C. I am in Stage 6 so it is a natural concern. I believe my fear is related to my having retired. Death was a natural consequence of my life in the military and having retired in 2007 I had an awesome realisation that I had in fact come through the other end, so to speak. After that sunk in, and my treatment for HCV failed, I suppose it was inevitable that I would begin to worry over a premature death.

4) Do I believe in reincarnation? As a Jew it is integral to my religion so tes, absolutely.

5) Am I family oriented? Absolutely, to a fault. The family is the centre of life though I do like a bit of distance from time to time.

6) Do I celebrate holidays? Only Jewish ones.

7) Am I one to focus on a desire and then to go for it (why couldn't they simply use "goal oriented"!)? Yes, I certainly am though I can be reluctant to set goals.

8) Am I listening to music at the moment? I rarely am not doing so. Right now it is an Above and Beyond show from Halloween, 2009 in Manila's World Trade Center. Hreat show though Filipinos are a bit offkilter when it comes to Trance. My favourite 3 genres: A) Vocal Trance, B) Mizrachi, C) Bachata Urbana.

9). Am I perceived to be emotionally weak? Hahaha, I'm perceived to be devoid of emotion. I would seem very cold to most because I view humanity as essentially being divided into just 2 classes, prey and predator. For all our civilised trappings we are still those primates just coming out of the trees onto the savannah. Seeing the world through my eyes isn't pleasant I'm afraid.

10) Am I physically weak? I'm not the strongest man in the world but that is irrelevant in a world that produces firearms.

Damn I am coming off like a fucken psycho. Hahaha, anyway, Ill continue In a following post due to the character count.

 

Part II

11) Do I believe that all rumors are based on some nugget of truth? Pnly a fool would believe such a thing.

12) Do I ask a lot of questions? Depends. With people that are close to me, I do but not with casual acquaintances.

13) Am I self centered? I can be, I am an addict after all and all addicts are centered on self. Actually, it is inherent to human nature. Still, in everything but my addiction I place loved ones first. Luckily I am one of the extremely few addicts who can lead a legal, staid existence and so my addiction doesn't deprive anyone of materiel things, only attention (which can be worse).

14) Am I out to prove something to the world? Haha, that Israel has a right to exist. Hahaha. If you are asking whether I have something to prove about myself, no.

15) Am I an only child? Noooooo, I am one of 11, and am the second youngest.

16) Do I have a favourite movie? In English it would be "Dragonfly," a perfect film despite it beung a Kevin Costner vehicle.

17) Grilled cheese or tacos? Depends on the cheese but it is a difficult decision as I am partial to both.

18) Do I have a single best friend or a group of confidantes? My squad mates, of whom 3 survive, are the closest to me of anyone, including lovers or children.

19) Is there one person I confide in? My mates, so three people.

20) Am I self confident? Yes, I am.

21) Am I perceived to be cocky? I don't think so, I try not to cast a big shadow. People that bark a lot have no bite might be the way to describe my view on that.

22) Do I have a favourite song? I have many depending upon my particular mood. At the moment I will say that I am obsessed with the slow jam, "Why Would You Stay" by Kem though I. I could have just as easily put perhaps 5 dozen vocal trance tracks in as well. Of all time it would be 2 Mizrachi songs: A) "Mimam'keem" by Idan Raichel and "Ad HaSof" by Shlomi Shabat and Lior Narkis. The first song brought me to tears when we played it on a boom box as we rolled across the Lebanese border in the 2006 War and the second is a song that epitomises the type of love I dream about, eternal.

23) Do I curse a lot? Not particularly.

24) Have I ever felt left out? Sure, childhood sucks though as we age we over-idealise it. As an adult though? Never in memory.

25) Do I do my best? Not always, unfortunately.

26) Do I give in easily? Not particularly though I am quick to compromise.

27) Can I walk a straight line without using my arms to balance? Yep, not a difficult endeavour if one doesn't drink themselves silly.

28) Do people approve of me? I reckon most don't give a shit either way. I am not sure what that question means actually, people in my personal life? People passing by me on a city street?

29) Am I good with parents? I always have been though lately I am older than my lover's parents so...

30) Do things get better in time? Cheese and wine do hahaha. Seriously though, time does heal most wounds.

I will get to the rest in another post.