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years later

E-girl

Bluelighter
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Oct 23, 1999
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PA, USA
I was walking down K street the other day and thought i saw you.
For a moment my breath caught in my throat, and i panicked.
After all, what would i say if i bumped into you on a street corner,
Years after the last time i have seen you?
What if you saw me, and looked the other way.
What if i wasn't the way you remembered me.
What if ... you didn't even recognize me at all?

It didn't matter... because it wasn't even you.
The truth is, I see you from time to time in a rush of strangers,
I hear your voice in a crowded room
I remember words you once said,
And I think for sure... they are all signs,
Reminding me that someone who once meant so much to me,
Should not be forgotten.
I remember you in fragments,
Because some memories hurt to much to revive,
And some have just washed away on the shores of remembrance long ago.

I remember sitting in a parking lot in the dark,
In Miami,
2 blocks from my house, afraid to go home and face reality.
I don't know what possessed me to call you, or break down and confide in you,
and I don't really know what I expected you to do from 1000s of miles away,
But i really needed you there,
Or at least to hear your voice.
I wanted to know that you haven't left me,
and that at the drop of dime, you would be there when i needed you most.

Well, there are a lot of those nights.
But it doesn't seem fair to call on you like that anymore.
There are nights I just want to call you up and beg you to take the next flight here,
Book it on my card,
Don't even pack!
Just come - be with me tonight.
Lay next to me, let me fall asleep in your arms
Let me breathe in the scent of you,
And memorize your contours,
And remember what your skin feels like beneath my fingertips.
I just wish I could look you in the eyes and tell you how much you've been missed,
all these years....
I wish i could tell you how i've always felt... still feel...
Even though I'm sure whatever you have felt is long gone.
I never forgot you

It was never the right place, the right time
I was young and naive and foolish
I never knew what I wanted,
And didn't appreciate it when I almost had it.
But someday i hope i can prove to you
That the things i thought, and felt, and wanted....
Were very real.

I did some growing up
I made all the mistakes I possibly could.
I finally accomplished all the things i worked for so hard
And now I have time for the things i was too scared to hold on to.
If i could see you right now,
I'd tell you that you're an incredible person,
Who always stood by me, motivated me, inspired me, and changed me.
Whether or not you believe that,
That's what I would say.
I would walk up to you
Take a breath
And kiss you ever so lightly.....
and tell you that





i'm ready.
 
you have the ability to spill words that constantly amaze me and bring me back to earth. what you have is more than a talent or a gift, its almost its own art form.

please dont ever stop writting.
 
10 years writing in this forum... they go by in a blink.

And we're so lucky to have had a decade of your life within our walls.

I want your story to work out exactly the way I know you're playing it out in your head. I hope everything is as you want it. I hope he realises what he can have.
 
^^ its once again, not the right time or the right place. that's how the story has gone for us for as long as i have known him. there are times he has had the chance, or i have had the chance, and passed it up. i have faith that the right time and place will come. until then, i'll write about him every couple years and i know he slips into this forum late at night once in a blue moon and reads them. for the one day that i had him, he was worth all the words, all the tears, all the hope, all the rememberance.

someday, you'll get to read the ending of this story. i promise.

love always wins in the end. doesn't it?
 
Oh.

My.

Fucking.

God.

E-girl, you are one of the most talented, and one of the most eloquent, and BY FAR most importantly, one of the most PASSIONATE writers whom I have EVER encountered.

Brah-Fucking-Voh!
 
Wow. That was the shit.

Fuck all the coked up whiskey soaked bullshit hollow sex I seem so infatuated with. It is those few (or the one that slipped away) who I see everywhere in everything.

Beautiful.
 
And how fitting that you entitled this poem "Years Later," as YOU, E-Girl, have been one of the best of the best of all of the off-the-charts amazing writers who have been contributing to this beautiful forum since its very inception.

And now, you have contributed yet another "Best Of Bluelight" worthy gem . . . Years Later.

You, Young Lady, are one of the reasons that THIS particular Bluelighter keeps coming back, and why he often waxes nostalgic about this Beautiful Place which, thankfully, so many of us decided to make our home nearly a decade ago.

Much Love & PLEASE Keep Writing,

LL <3
 
Thank you for the compliments, but these days I don't really even consider what I write poetry. These are the emotions I wear on my sleeve, the fragments of a younger me left in my heart... the memories of things I felt once and couldn't let go of. I don't write for the sake of beautifully crafting words together anymore that will melt on your tongue like a snowflake in just the right way... I just write the feelings that plague me late at night when the silence is too loud to let me sleep and the rememberance of people not-quite-forgotten seep into my mind.

LL - it's been one long crazy decade, hasn't it my friend?
 
yes. it has probably been... man, i'd have to refer to some old poetry lol but.... probably at least 6 years. but i still hear from him randomly. we have gotten back into contact recently, and i'm really grateful for that, and to hear he is happy and doing well.
 
"I just write the feelings that plague me late at night when the silence is too loud to let me sleep"

thats an amazing thing too say, and i think everyone can relate to it at some point in their lives
if i am really stressed out and i write down a poem or song about the way i am feeling, it gives me a sense of clarity that cannot be found anywhere else
 
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