Benzos Xanax tolerance is building up//

[cassius14]

- Always had sleeping problems for years tried temazapam short term nothing
- Recently prescribed 2x12.5mg slow release stilnox boxes which I force myself to take at 9pm so im asleep by 10-11pm. Problem is I need a xanax or valium on top for it to work
- I was diagnosed with depression of some sort by filling out a questionnair. on the outside I appear extremely confident, but I know deep down I am not because of things I do, always try to impress people etc-
- to be honest as a kid even through high school, i never felt worthy at all. thats why I did a zyzz bulked from 6ft 60kg skinny fat to 6ft 90kg ripped. but that only mildly helps. keeps you distracted by surrounding yourself with girls, or a gym sesh that motivate you just for that day. it seems self destructive. I am currently on steroids. tren 600mg, test 250mg, mast 250mg per week

- So doctor put me on Efflexor CR. One week in not that many sides, I generally wake up 5-6am feeling great full of energy life, motivation, but by mid afternoon I feel dead. So I take valium have a nap then im all good again
- Dr thinks my swings of mania and anxiety are exasserbated by steroids and as I plan to ween off them everything should click into place

problem is this valium, stiilnox and xanax required is increasing

- i tred to cut down daily valium usage in general, sometimes wont take it at aall
- used xanax just to help knock me out maybe like 3-5mg
- just as of last night I used 1 stillnox as opposed to 2

Im hoping over next week as the antidepressants kick in i wont need these benzos. but I am really concerned about being hooked on them. Yesterday at Uni I was full of energy ready to do all this stuff, I came home and felt litrally catatonic, i took some 20-30mg valium had a 15-20min nap I wont up absoloutly CHARGING ready to do a anything. problem is was too late in the night by then I had to go sleep early to stick to my 10pm - 5am routine

i really cant afford to fuck myself on benzos. im in med school. I just want xanax and valium to had the same effect that it used too when I firstly took it because some of theseefflexor sides are nasty and I can't function. I tutor, I work, i got full time med school ; lots of responsibilities

I have tried ordering high strength kava, passionflower tea, mindfulness/meditation only works when there isnt a lot on my plate, sometimes when I feel numb emotionally like catatonic I dont know wwhat to do so I have like 2 coffees a valium and im charging ready to do anything

Some days I roll out of be and im productive from the get go. but it always gets worse by afternoon/evening
what do you guys think?

 

[cassius14]

Nobody? I wake up usually great full of life so happy and positive just like after the gym but otherwise there's not that general happiness usually having company helps but being myself not so much

Good news is takes a lot less to put me to sleep now,slowly titration off

I want to feel that calmness when I wakeup all day and be at peace I don't live a stressful life, my uni course is hard but I enjoy it.

I enjoy the gym and use anabolic steroids to push the limit I'm like 6ft 90kg at 10% so ivr spent four years at the gym as my outlet but I hate how so many days I feel uneasiness lurking I'm the background.I am three weeks into effescor xr and take about 10-15g of valium daily hoping when the effector kick in i won't need it

 

[beforethebeginning]

antidepressants and tranquilizers are addictive,
the longer u take em the higher amount u need to get high on them.

long slow tapers are advised to avoid withdrawal syndromes, read up on it.
i dont know about steroids but i guess that any drug that can make u high can just as easily make u down.

drugs mask the fear and depression but don't really deal with them.
maybe you need to learn to see things and deal with things differently instead of drug urself to escape the pain

 

[dankplantgrower]

I dont know the valium to xanax (alprazolam) conversion but if you use 3-5 mgs xanax as a sleep aid regularly you probably got some withdrawals coming. I was only in the 3 mg daily range for a few months and even I had some pretty damn uncomfortable withdrawals. Mainly insomnia and sleep disruption, extremely vivid nightmares for awhile. Id tackle this right now while its more easily manageable. Id start a gradual taper and stock up on the weed.

 

[cassius14]

I only take stilnox yo sleep now but my sleep is broken up tried 20mg 1st gen antihistamines didn't work.

Previous weeks combined it with valium xanax to sleep but no luck

I've only ever touched any benzos or sleeping pills for two weeks
I take my still not same time every nightwwke up 5am
And

 

[beforethebeginning]

sleeping problems can be a "bitch" to get fixed i guess.
especially if ur body has become dependent on something,
it's not just a matter of "learning to falling asleep without drugs" when ur body is adrenalizing itself awake.

the only solution i can imagine to fix sleeping problems,
is to switch to a drug that works differently on the body.

for example, if ur addicted to ambien to fall asleep,
switch to smoking weed or some type of antidepressant that makes u sleepy.
when ur body has adapted to no longer need the ambien to sleep,
stop using the drug you replaced ambien with...

ofcourse this would only work if the drug is less addictive to u and causing less sleeping problems than ambien did in the first place.
else you would have to use ambien again to start withdrawing from the weed/antidepressant,
and hopefully use it only a few days so u dont get addicted to ambien again.

~

all this advice aside,
if ur taking steroids its probably normal u cant sleep.

 

[RTrain]

From the sounds of it he might be a person who will suffer from too many negative effects from marijuana. Granted it will eventually leaver you burnt out and help you pass out, but is that worth the potential panic attacks that it can induce, Especially if you are withdrawing off of benzos and z-drugs. Marijauna is way to unpredictable as a replacement for those drugs. Its action on GABA is not well documented/

 

[dankplantgrower]

If he only tokes just before bedtime, whats the problem? Take a hit and lay down, weed always alows me to drift off. I suffer anxiety from pot as well but if I keep it to the evening when there isnt much going on, it really isnt a big deal.

I would have went nuts if I had to tackle my benzo kick without weed. Fuck that. I need my fucking sleep.