Xanax... Seizures.

[kcx1992]

Im not new to the world of benzos at all. I suffer from crippling anxiety, and I mean suffer! With my 1mg 3 times daily I still can't go to public places alone. Well like many people I started abusing my Xanax and running short. About a little over a year ago, I had a seziure from the withdrawl, mind you this was days after being without it. I was with my mother at the time and was transported via ambulance to ER, where it was determined benzo withdrawl, was given a script of Ativan and I even did a brief stay in the BHU at the local hospital after abusing my Xanax again after seziure, being scared I decided it was best. Where the saftly detoxed me. Needless to say my psychiatrist would not prescribe me benzos again after that point. However it was super easy to get a family doctor to take over the script, I just took in the empty bottle of 80 1mg, asked if I could be continued on that but instead of 80, I asked for 90, and it wasn't an issue whatsoever. Eventually I went back to abusing them, running short month after month and I just thankfully didn't have a seziure. Well last week I wasn't so lucky, I had a seziure while I was behind the wheel of my car. I had a "friend" with me and the only thing we had done that day was smoke some weed, and she did a lot of suboxone film, I asked for a tiny (I mean tiny) probably equal to about less than 1mg of the active ingredient of the 8mg strip. THANK GOD we were in traffic moving at around 5mph and THANK GOD my car needs an alignment like something fierce so when I had the seziure it pulled towards the guardrail and I didn't hit any other vehicles. I'm not entirely sure what happened however my "friend" took off on me. I was told an elderly couple cradled me on the side of the road until the police took over. Being a small town, one of my sisters friends were in the traffic behind me and called her and she told my mom who came rushing from the next town over and beat the ambulance to me. However the ambulance did arrive. I did not "come back to reality" meaning I don't remember anything until I was being unloaded off the ambulance at the hospital. That's where the police officer started asking me questions. However yet again THANK GOD! I was not sighted for anything and did not loose my license. Eventually I was discharged given two 1/2mg Xanax to get me thru till I could get the prescription for 10 1mg Xanax filled... A 5 day supply. Now this is where I am now I took the 5 day supply as prescribed. I attempted to get into my doctor early, they couldn't do it. I went to the local "Medexpress" (walk in clinic) to try and obtain some more Xanax till my appointment bc they've done it for me before but apparently they only do it 1 time as a courtesy thing so they told me to go to ER... Where I did and was also discharged with no script told that it's my doctors responcabilty. I don't know what to do a friend gave me 2 1/2mg Xanax and I'm down to 1, I don't see my doctor till the 29th for my monthly refill. I was in no means tapered off. I'm so deathly scared that I'm gonna have another seziure and die. I do refuse to get behind the wheel of my car awhile I'm in withdrawl now. Bc besides a very small dent that's all my car suffered from going into the guardrail. I feel like the hospital that turned me away with nothing is malpractice, I mean I was seeking help for the prevention of withdrawl. They basically said "come back if you have another seziure". Urg idk what to do im very scared.