Harambulus
Greenlighter
I went to doc as I complain about irritable bowel syndrome, insomnia and constant need to piss.
He said he thinks these are all linked and asked if I am depressed as he says these stress symptoms all indicate stress related causes. I'm sure I'd officially classify as depressed- lack of motivation, general constant existential malaise, haven't worked in two years cos I don't see the point etc. yet I just ignore it and take other drugs to give me a respite. I don't really feel like it's a 'problem' per se in that drugs give me a release and allow me to function somewhat however I am getting sick of using drugs for this purpose cos they make me feel worse after.
I am fed up with wanting to take strong chemicals to escape from this feeling for like a cpl of hours only to feel worse afterwards cos overall it is a vicious cycle so I was thinking SSRIs might be a good option to help ween me off this behaviour pattern.
As I don't work (haven't worked for 2 years, was at uni before that) I just sit at home and in the past months I've got into to research chemical scene so since then I spend my days looking up what research chemical is the latest to crop up. I usually use the excuse that I find it 'interesting' but each time it ends up I get drawn in and involved in their release and so end up trying them just cos I think I have nothing better to do.
So I am trying to fill the gap with whatever RC happens to be available.
So would SSRIs work to get me back motivation to do 'normal' things? I really couldn't give a shit about work and really shun it. I am rather misanthropic in general in that I hate working with ppl and dislike most human interaction which is what has caused me to not want to work. I see it as a pointless drudge.
Not only work but nearly everything in life I see like this, hobbies, music (ye I find music boring and drab, I only like it when I am really high nowadays). As I said I also don;t feel like I'm 'missing out' hence why I have had little inclination to change.
I'm thinking SSRIs would be a good replacements for the all and sundry drugs I take in my spare time cos with these they usually make me feel worse after. I know SSRIs also have side effects but I am thinking perhaps they would give me some motivation and replace the stronger drugs that I have been taking to fill my time. Used as a stepping stone if you will so that perhaps I will find things other than drugs interesting again to stop the negative cycle of seeking out harmful substances to fill the void.
Thoughts?
He said he thinks these are all linked and asked if I am depressed as he says these stress symptoms all indicate stress related causes. I'm sure I'd officially classify as depressed- lack of motivation, general constant existential malaise, haven't worked in two years cos I don't see the point etc. yet I just ignore it and take other drugs to give me a respite. I don't really feel like it's a 'problem' per se in that drugs give me a release and allow me to function somewhat however I am getting sick of using drugs for this purpose cos they make me feel worse after.
I am fed up with wanting to take strong chemicals to escape from this feeling for like a cpl of hours only to feel worse afterwards cos overall it is a vicious cycle so I was thinking SSRIs might be a good option to help ween me off this behaviour pattern.
As I don't work (haven't worked for 2 years, was at uni before that) I just sit at home and in the past months I've got into to research chemical scene so since then I spend my days looking up what research chemical is the latest to crop up. I usually use the excuse that I find it 'interesting' but each time it ends up I get drawn in and involved in their release and so end up trying them just cos I think I have nothing better to do.
So I am trying to fill the gap with whatever RC happens to be available.
So would SSRIs work to get me back motivation to do 'normal' things? I really couldn't give a shit about work and really shun it. I am rather misanthropic in general in that I hate working with ppl and dislike most human interaction which is what has caused me to not want to work. I see it as a pointless drudge.
Not only work but nearly everything in life I see like this, hobbies, music (ye I find music boring and drab, I only like it when I am really high nowadays). As I said I also don;t feel like I'm 'missing out' hence why I have had little inclination to change.
I'm thinking SSRIs would be a good replacements for the all and sundry drugs I take in my spare time cos with these they usually make me feel worse after. I know SSRIs also have side effects but I am thinking perhaps they would give me some motivation and replace the stronger drugs that I have been taking to fill my time. Used as a stepping stone if you will so that perhaps I will find things other than drugs interesting again to stop the negative cycle of seeking out harmful substances to fill the void.
Thoughts?