For me, the worst thing about opiates are as follows:
* Abnormal bowel movements
* Withdrawals
* Depression (During withdrawals and of course even worse AFTER in PAWS)
* Wasting precious money that could be used for rent, other bills, new toys (games, computers, car) or most importantly food
* No matter if I have 10 pills to get me through a day, or 300 to get through a month, it is NEVER enough. Only able to think about how to obtain more, constantly.
That's just a small list. Yeah, taking opiate pills, or whatever your formulation, can feel good, hell it can feel GREAT, but like somebody else said for HR purposes, there is a whole 'nother side to the spectrum, a very dark, and unforgiving side. I found this site long ago by googling when I first got into drug use and opiate use (I am clean right now, thank god) and I seen it as a confirmation that what I was doing was ok. Not that this site didn't have a great HR aura to it, but I did find some posts that blatantly glorified the use, and that further instilled that fire in my brain to go ahead, crush up another roxi, grab the straw, and snort.
To anybody, who has never used opiates, or has recently just started, and is looking for advice, or even seasoned users that lean more to the rec side than the CP side.. HELL TO ALL OPIATE USERS, GET OUT WHILE YOU STILL CAN. I am an addict. I respect the power these little pills have over your life, and the power they have over mine. I do NOT look down upon anyone using, because I know how easy it is to get trapped by this foul beast that we all LOVE and HATE at the same exact time. But I promise you, it is a slippery road, it can cost you:
* Your money
* Your possessions (you may begin to pawn valuables, stop paying bills, lose your house/apartment/car)
* Your children! Your spouse! Your family..
* YOUR LIFE
Please, think twice before you continue down this road. Much respect to all of us who struggle daily with this love/hate relationship with opiates.