hungryguy420
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Apr 29, 2012
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So here's my story
For the past 5 months (basically from the beginning of this year) I've began using meth. It started out like every other story I've heard about people not thinking they would ever get hooked on any hard drug. I started out smoking it and eventually tried hot rails , and everthing seemed like I had my use in control.
Then I tried IVing for my first time. As you can imagine I definately enjoyed the rush and tried it again occasionally. Or at least I thought it was occasional. I slowly began to question if I was shooting it too much and obviously that's where I should have known I was.
When I would use I would ask my friends if they thought I was using too often or if I was letting my self get too frequent with dosing. I had plenty of times that when I would get high that I would immediately think that everyone was trying to make jokes of me or just mess with my head.
Eventually it turned to me thinking all of my friends were against me and so I began using on my own at home. I would usually dose in the bathroom and just take my time with it. I've been trying to always make sure that everyone who knows I use, doesn't think badly of me.
I now am at the point where even if I use the restroom or take a shower , my family knows that I'm getting high . Ive got to the realization that I can't continue this problem if I want to ever get rid of my paranoia and the withdrawal stages.
I'm never comfortable even after refraining from using for 24 hrs. Please help me if you've ever experienced this type of problem and have been able to find a way to keep from thinking over exaggerated thoughts or paranoia.
For the past 5 months (basically from the beginning of this year) I've began using meth. It started out like every other story I've heard about people not thinking they would ever get hooked on any hard drug. I started out smoking it and eventually tried hot rails , and everthing seemed like I had my use in control.
Then I tried IVing for my first time. As you can imagine I definately enjoyed the rush and tried it again occasionally. Or at least I thought it was occasional. I slowly began to question if I was shooting it too much and obviously that's where I should have known I was.
When I would use I would ask my friends if they thought I was using too often or if I was letting my self get too frequent with dosing. I had plenty of times that when I would get high that I would immediately think that everyone was trying to make jokes of me or just mess with my head.
Eventually it turned to me thinking all of my friends were against me and so I began using on my own at home. I would usually dose in the bathroom and just take my time with it. I've been trying to always make sure that everyone who knows I use, doesn't think badly of me.
I now am at the point where even if I use the restroom or take a shower , my family knows that I'm getting high . Ive got to the realization that I can't continue this problem if I want to ever get rid of my paranoia and the withdrawal stages.
I'm never comfortable even after refraining from using for 24 hrs. Please help me if you've ever experienced this type of problem and have been able to find a way to keep from thinking over exaggerated thoughts or paranoia.