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Worried.. Still (8 1/2 weeks on)

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Jaisif

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Yoooo wuddup,

Just want a little bit of help here, im wondering if what im experiencing could be a form of phychosis..?
its been 8 1/2 weeks now and im still feeling pretty messed up in the head,
I made a thread 3 weeks ago explaining my symptoms at the time and at the time thought it would be the last of it..
but obviously not!

Heres the link too my previous first thread.. :http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/threads/585920-MDMA-My-symptoms-after-Abuse-Are-they-normal

Reading through this im still feeling these symptoms apart from the tiredness i was getting and the unmotivation due too lack of sleep..

but i keep thinking im having delusions, Due too the constant anxiety/paranoia and continuous thoughts im getting and its realy playing with me.. These thoughts only consist of my symptoms though, Getting anxious And thinking i have this mental disorder, Nothing else and when i eventually do take my mind off of it its still in the back of my mind, and im relating everything i think,feel and see too what could be symptoms for phychosis.. :L

Is this realy a dilusion or just repetative thoughts that are all adding up too me thinking im having a dilusion?
I know this probably sounds stupid and is almost certainly infact just due too the anxiety and paranoia im experiencing..

Too have phychosis i found out you need too have Deffinite continuous relapses of dilusions AND hallucinations.. i was experiencing some hallucinations a few weeks back but i dont Suffer from any now, and sometimes i think iv just had a hallucination (like a Car break screetching, or someone Talking behind me) but it is actually a real noise and i can see were it came from and i Feel stupid for thinking it was a hallucination.. hahah

from the research i've done i found out that if symptoms consist for 3 months after reframing from Exstacy, That it could be a phychosis
but obviously it could be many other things but this realy is the worst possible thing i could be diagnosed with and it gets too me.. alot!

anyway im getting though it, Week by week and i can at times see the light.. But its hard, And you might be thinking im obviously sitting at home day in day out worrying, but im working every day.. exercising 3 times a week, going out on the weekends and doing all that i can too keep my mind off of it!.. Im getting on with my life and even though this is getting too me, i've had some awsome times during this and even though it has been the hardest time of my life, you could say that its a valuable lesson and that playing with exstacy too much Can realy have an effect on you!..


Thanks for reading through this and i hope it makes sence.. in some way!

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Peaceeeeee.
 
Bearing in mind i'm no expert in anything to do with your post.

But I reckon you got some mega anxiety going on bro.
 
Go and see someone medical about it. But be careful about what you say to your GP. Drugs stuff on your medial record can screw up getting life insurance. Whilst you might not ever want any of that, lots of employers offer Death In Service benefits which is life cover and the providers often want to see your records. Needless to say, drugs coming out at this point can be a deal breaker.

Psychosis seem a little extreme for what you describe. Depression and anxiety sounds more like it to me. When I've been depressed I've had paranoid thoughts like that.
 
The mind is very powerful and can trick you if you dont get a hold of your self and make some sense of your thoughts. If you keep acting like this you will probably develop something... You need to relax!
maybe some yoga can help you with relaxing your mind , or hypnotherapy.
If you abuse mdma you will suffer the consequences
i payed my dues a while back ago. i bought a 100+ pack of the most amazing pills and was on a serious binge with the b/f. Thinking back on it now that im in school most of the day studying hard and very on point (im a serious mj smoker) i was high as a kite for 6 months straight i lost weight, i wouldn't eat, i was rolling balls about 3 time a week , i never took more then three per roll tho i use to smoke pot all day and work at victoria secretes few hours a week and roll the rest of the time.. great times but the big comedown was horrible .. My theory is... I think i actually withdrew because of taking the SAME pills constantly for almost 6 months straight up to 3 and 4 times a weeks towards the end of the binge .When i stopped i got really bad night sweats, i would get nauseated throw up, have bad head aches, and just felt very weird over all, my bf got really sick with a fever and had night sweats and described feeling weird also .And no lie if it wasn't for all the pot we smoked we would have never eaten or slept, all this lasted for about 2 weeks after we stopped.
i did feel outta it and burnt for a bit but i knew it would pass and i got over it.
you gotta do something like focus on school or work, maybe working out . take your mind off of it!
your not going through any with draws so this is all in your mind and up to you to relax.
Best thing to do is just find something that motivates you, find productive things that get your mind working read books, write, draw, work your mind if you leave it were its at now it wont get better
 
Yeahh its so true that this is just a chronic form of anxiety.. and looking at this now that im feeling completley calm i can say it is just these repetative thoughts and too much researching on things i dont entirely understand thats getting me worked up and Anxious and jumping too conclusions, the mind realy is a powerfull thing! aslong as i can keep reminding myself that im fine and dont have these horrid mental disorders, im sure with time it will fade away..
Thanks guys, ..a day ago i was Writing up my symptoms on a sheet of paper getting ready too Go too my Dp and tell them about all this.. WHAT WAS I THINKING?
Ahhh i guess you can say things can only get better :D
 
Maybe try some Theanine. A natural amino acid with a mild anti-anxiety effect.

I'd recommend getting a CBT workbook like http://www.amazon.co.uk/Cognitive-B...=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1315560689&sr=1-1

What it does is make you lay out all your negtive thoughts and feelings on paper, deconstruct the beliefs that lead to those thoughts and help you reconstruct positive alternatives to form new, more positive, thinking habits. It's a scientifically proven method for helping people with anxiety, depression, OCD etc. It's pretty sensible stuff that works. Worth a shot.
 
Jaisif said:
Yeahh its so true that this is just a chronic form of anxiety.. and looking at this now that im feeling completley calm i can say it is just these repetative thoughts and too much researching on things i dont entirely understand thats getting me worked up and Anxious and jumping too conclusions, the mind realy is a powerfull thing! aslong as i can keep reminding myself that im fine and dont have these horrid mental disorders, im sure with time it will fade away..
Thanks guys, ..a day ago i was Writing up my symptoms on a sheet of paper getting ready too Go too my Dp and tell them about all this.. WHAT WAS I THINKING?
Ahhh i guess you can say things can only get better :D
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yes every thing will get better especially with time just stay away from x for a long time , and what the above^ poster said sounds good :) you should give it a shot !

stop doing all these crazy google research and just relax your mind with other more productive mind challenging things to distract you and help you build knowledge make yourself feel better like i said you can also try yoga and meditation which is extremely good for relaxation of the mind :)
goodluck youll do great and youll feel better forsure
 
Thanks Guy's! been realy helpfull!
Been another day at work of half the day spent being anxious and the other half not, And actually being able too enjoy myself and looking forward too going out tonight as its my Last day at work- OOT OOT :D

Il look into this book it sounds like a good idea & also the Theanine..

Once again thankss! :D
 
nice one mate. have a good one.

I agree with lay off the google searches. Last time I did that I started off with a sore fingertip and ended up thinking I might have lung-cancer. Anytime you google for health problems you always end up thinking you've got a terminal illness or are two steps from the loony bin!
 
Hahah so true, This is almost like a milestone for me.. because i have been researching about Drug induced phychosis and other Horrid illnessess it's obviously put me in this state..
But i have just researched the simple 'Depression' & 'Anxiety' And all these symptoms i have are The exact same too Depression and anxiety!!
For instance- What i thought were hallucinations witch is a main symptom for Phychosis (Witch is this buzzing i keep hearing) is axtually a symptom of anxiety, fricking crazy tbh and the fact i can now underline in my mind that it is JUST anxiety and mild depression, i can move on from it and forget about it!
So happy right now!, But i still have more milestones too get too And if im still Feeling anxious and depressed in another month or so im deffinitly going too See my gp, but i pretty sure by then i should be fine... We shall see :)

anyway im off too the gym, Thanks again!
 
If you're hearing a buzzing maybe you have tinnitus? I sure do from going out to loud clubs for too long.

God it used to drive me nuts. These days I don't really notice it.
 
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