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Dahkra

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Hey everyone, I've just started posting here but I hope I can still get some help from you guys right now. Well, sometimes I get so depressed I become suicidal and the other night it just got so bad I wanted out. I cut both of my wrists a bunch of times and took about 40 pills I found around the house in one sitting and right now I'm feeling so much pain inside of me. I can't tell you what the pills I took were, they were unlabeled and just stuff I found in a box full of medicine and pills. They were a bunch of different ones though. I know I should probably go to a doctor or something but with the cuts on my arms I'm afraid I'll get sent to a mental ward again (been to two of them). Sleeping is rough, I'm having trouble breathing and I feel fatigue. I tried eating last night but only two PB&J sandwiches has been all I've eaten in the past two days. I don't have much of an appetite but I'm starving, I keep getting this intense pain near in my chest too and that's making me too afraid to eat.

I'd really appreciate some kind of guidance, I made a stupid mistake and I'm regretting it badly right now. Thanks for any help you give guys.<3
 
Dahkra, do you have any idea what pills you took? Regardless, you really should seek medical attention as soon as possible, just to be safe. Please call an ambulance or have someone take you to the nearest hospital. Take care, and let us know how you go <3
 
You need to seek medical attention IMMEDIATELY. You could do (or have already done) serious irreversible damage to your liver + kidneys and various other vital organs. Go to a hospital, as much as you don't want to. Now. And yes, they will question you about cutting your wrists and will want you to speak to a psychologist but seriously it's not worth jeopardising your physical health and wellbeing JUST to avoid that conversation. Do it.

I've had a friend in a similar position before. She's lucky she didn't die. Oh and with the damage she did to her organs, if she ever tried something like this again, the outcome could be far worse i.e. death.
 
Thanks for the support guys. Unfortunately I don't know what kinds of pills I took. It might sound stupid too but I usually feel like I don't want to live but don't want to die either. The part of me that doesn't want to live is preventing me from getting the medical attention I need. I'll try my best to get help. I live with my family in my home by the way but nobody ever checks up on me.
 
I understand where you're coming from, I really do. But if you've done some internal damage it is possibly going to be very long, slow and very painful. It's not worth waiting around for that. I strongly recommend you go and get checked out as soon as you can.
 
Please do have yourself checked out by a doctor and bring as many, if you still have them, packages and labels and samples from any pills that may be left over for identification, if that is not possible just go as soon as possible you might risk organ damage and if you survive that quality of life will be down with no real benefits. A mind can be happiest in a healthy body please do inform someone what you did and have yourself checked as soon as possible!
 
Best advice... get yourself checked out my friend just to be on the safe side, take care now.
 
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