bdomihizayka
Bluelighter
Long story short- I have been off opiates for around 6 months until a couple days ago. I was given clonidine for the withdrawals and never got off. In fact, I took a shitload of it daily. Now, I take .2mg in the morning and by 8pm I feel the need to take me night dose which is .4mgs. I was taking over 1mg a day at one point. I only realized about two weeks ago how addictive this shit is when I decided to stop taking it.... I was hit with a MASSIVE panic attack and thought I was going to seize or something- it felt so dangerous.
Anyways- the withdrawals from this stuff is exactly like opiate withdrawal in my opinion and feels even worse- I'm not being facetious- because of the massive headache and blood pressure spikes. I had chronically low blood pressure- and now if I go like 20 hours without a dose my bp will go up to 175/105.
SO I relapsed the other day on poppy tea. Why the fuck not I told myself- I'm already addicted to something just as if not more awful.
I also read online this shit can be so addictive that you may need to take it for the rest of your life!!! Doctors have been of no help and just tell me I have high bp and need to be medicated when in fact I know its the discontinuation of the drug
Can anyone help me out please? I've never been so scared and desperate in all of my junkie years- this stuff is frightening!
Anyways- the withdrawals from this stuff is exactly like opiate withdrawal in my opinion and feels even worse- I'm not being facetious- because of the massive headache and blood pressure spikes. I had chronically low blood pressure- and now if I go like 20 hours without a dose my bp will go up to 175/105.
SO I relapsed the other day on poppy tea. Why the fuck not I told myself- I'm already addicted to something just as if not more awful.
I also read online this shit can be so addictive that you may need to take it for the rest of your life!!! Doctors have been of no help and just tell me I have high bp and need to be medicated when in fact I know its the discontinuation of the drug
Can anyone help me out please? I've never been so scared and desperate in all of my junkie years- this stuff is frightening!