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Withdrawal: @36hrs

Ah dammit Transltr. It's so easy to do isn't it, treat yourself just for today once you're done with the worst, cos hey, you deserve it, right? Never turns out to be just that one day though does it? There's no going back to casual, recreational use for addicts like us. It's all or nothing. Still, you almost made it last time so at least know you can do this, with a little wisdom added knowing where a stupid mistake got you last time round. You'll not make that same mistake again, will you? Will you Transltr? :lol: ;)

Best of luck Transltr. I have every confidence in you. :)
 
Thanks for those words, Shady and everyone else. :)

Right now I'm at hour 30 and to be honest, I don't feel too bad. Some mild pain in my legs, stomach is upset but I feel like I can actually eat, which I will try soon and just overall depression. But the depression is what gets me. Right now I'm at work, which will ensure I reach hour 36. The hardest part for me is getting myself to go to work sober. It's such an inner struggle for me, but I made it today. I know tomorrow when I wake up, I will be at 48 hours, which has always been over the hump for me.

I actually tried quitting a couple days ago. I went 24 hours and caved and used once and went another 24 hours and caved again and used once. Since I usually use twice per day I guess I sort of did a quick 2 days taper by cutting my usage in half. It feels a lot better this time around than it did trying to quit a couple of days ago.
 
So, here is a (very late, I know) update: This whole time I had been using... Ugghhh I feel terrible about it, but I just was not ready. I am in another serious attempt right now at kicking. I made it to 60 hours clean and felt like I had just gotten over the worst of it... And then I used one dose. But I did not even feel it set in and it barely lifted my mood. That was 24 hours ago and I'm not really feeling the onset of WDs kicking in again. I hope they don't, because I really feel like I can make it this time.

Thanks for the support, TDS!
 
Each time you try builds on what came before. What kinds of things have you set up for support for yourself? Although it ultimately comes down to you, it is near impossible to do it alone. I hope you have some good support (you've got it here but I mean, beyond us).<3
 
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