I too found ORT to be amazing at gaining the stability I required to get back into healthy habits, in terms of both re-establishing those I'd gotten out of touch with over my career of heavy use and developing new ones I wasn't very familiar with. Once established, these healthy habits - all tied to my passions in one way or another - gave me a further foundation to rely upon to help maintain a stable mood and keep the stress of life (and tapering) under control as I engaged in a very lengthy taper. It wasn't easy, but it was so incredibly rewarding that it wasn't anything like the horror stories you hear.
Tapering no more than once a week and making sure to take regular weeks or two off from tapering made the process of getting off very manageable. Plus it gave me plenty of time to organize the support groups I had established in life - not really so much abstinence oriented kind of support, but my involvement volunteering, at school, with supportive communities tied to other passions, etc - and get a good kit of comfort meds together to manage the two-ish weeks of mild acute withdrawal I experiences when jumping off from zero (mostly consisting of irritability, malaise, and a fucked up circadian rhythm).
Getting off opioids will do wonders for your sex drive (or if you're like me and where plenty horny while on them, make you go totally nuts like a pubescent male adolescent), however I caution you that this is not nearly enough of a motivation in terms of one that can reasonably assume will carry one through the protracted effort of tapering, detoxing and stabilizing post opioid use. I found a deeper, perhaps somewhat existential kind of motivation to be much more powerful (like how I knew my opioid use was preventing me from achieving the most important goals I had in life, and how I'd need to address that before it was reasonable for me to expect I had any real shot of accomplishing my albeit meager life goals).
But the more motivating factors you have (sexual energy, financial, familiar, etc) the better!
What are you doing in life you enjoy john? And what do you desire to start reengaging with in life in order to become the person you wish to be(come)? Worthwhile questions to reflect on a bit. You're mood and motivation will definitely go through some changes during the process of continuing to attaining long term sobriety/recovery, but this is nothing to be afraid of. If you are patient with yourself and kind and gentle in terms of the changes you'll experience - and the changes implied in realizing one day you have been opioid free for even just a few months is pretty mind blowing, after years of use - you will be more than able to roll with the punches.
I'd suggest educating yourself as to what to experience during the taper, detox and early recovery from opioid use. It is a very predictable process, though the dearth of anything but anecdotal info on the subjects in everyday life make it very difficult to wrap one's head around in a realistic way. Of course, we are happy to help with that here though
Be well!
