the_ketaman
Bluelighter
So I have only been using stimulants to make life a bit easier and more productive with stims for maybe 4 years but before that I've been using meth fairly sporadically for 20 years.
Around 3 years ago I kicked a pretty full on and long term heroin and bupe habit by replacing it for a fairly significant methamphetamine abuse stint. I actually think meth had much worse effects on just about every part of my life than opiates ever did. And the only reason this happened was because I was homeless, I couldn't dose and I couldn't get heroin but I could get meth. And if you think about a single guy, with a female Pitbull tied to him 24/7(I later gave her to a no&kill shelter. Possibly trauma that led on to the harder meth abuse as she was my world but she deserved better) I could never sleep. I had to walk up to 10km each day to report to a police STN otherwise I would do 2 years jail time.
I was on high alert all the time and the smallest mistake made could result in extremely serious consequences(far to harsh imo)
Anyway coming back to now. I used a lot of ritalin to help me with my ADHD but I just had the littlest shot of meth and my head is so much more organised, the energy and clarity is spread out so I can do what I need to in each space of time that I have. On ritalin I just wing it and get some things done. Sober I'm on the couch all day unable to do anything(this is partly due to a relationship breakdown and my subsequent broken heart)
Is my tolerance to ritalin what causes this or is meth just a better drug?
I think the constant up and down and redosing is what a lot of it is, but the dose I just had with a coffee was perfect! But I know a few years ago it would have given me a straight up panic attack as I didnt handle stims well at all. It's funny how different drugs do different thing at various stages in a persons life.
I was just saying how ket used to be the fav, I used to be able to use psychedelics with only slight trepidation and various other little drug patterns. The only thing that has stayed the same is that heroin is my true favourite drug and it gives me pretty much the same relief from life that it always has and I can keep the dose relatively small because I'm on bupe so a deal will always calm my mind if not get me pretty high.
But meth, it's so weird. People say it's different and I tend to agree to a point. I think a functional doses though it can be magic!
P.s so sorry it's so long. I find it very hard to make my writing and points succinct and if I edit it down too much it doesn't feel right so I apologize.
Around 3 years ago I kicked a pretty full on and long term heroin and bupe habit by replacing it for a fairly significant methamphetamine abuse stint. I actually think meth had much worse effects on just about every part of my life than opiates ever did. And the only reason this happened was because I was homeless, I couldn't dose and I couldn't get heroin but I could get meth. And if you think about a single guy, with a female Pitbull tied to him 24/7(I later gave her to a no&kill shelter. Possibly trauma that led on to the harder meth abuse as she was my world but she deserved better) I could never sleep. I had to walk up to 10km each day to report to a police STN otherwise I would do 2 years jail time.
I was on high alert all the time and the smallest mistake made could result in extremely serious consequences(far to harsh imo)
Anyway coming back to now. I used a lot of ritalin to help me with my ADHD but I just had the littlest shot of meth and my head is so much more organised, the energy and clarity is spread out so I can do what I need to in each space of time that I have. On ritalin I just wing it and get some things done. Sober I'm on the couch all day unable to do anything(this is partly due to a relationship breakdown and my subsequent broken heart)
Is my tolerance to ritalin what causes this or is meth just a better drug?
I think the constant up and down and redosing is what a lot of it is, but the dose I just had with a coffee was perfect! But I know a few years ago it would have given me a straight up panic attack as I didnt handle stims well at all. It's funny how different drugs do different thing at various stages in a persons life.
I was just saying how ket used to be the fav, I used to be able to use psychedelics with only slight trepidation and various other little drug patterns. The only thing that has stayed the same is that heroin is my true favourite drug and it gives me pretty much the same relief from life that it always has and I can keep the dose relatively small because I'm on bupe so a deal will always calm my mind if not get me pretty high.
But meth, it's so weird. People say it's different and I tend to agree to a point. I think a functional doses though it can be magic!
P.s so sorry it's so long. I find it very hard to make my writing and points succinct and if I edit it down too much it doesn't feel right so I apologize.
