Why havent you called?

[harraser]

I cant stop thinking about you
Why havent you called?
You said you would
We were supposed to catch up tomorow
You were supposed to call so we could organise it
But you havent
And you wont
And when I call you
I know
There'll be no answer
My repeated blind optimism
Is getting just about as predictable
As your unreliability.
Its pathetic really
I was getting by fine being "just frenids"
It makes it easier that I almost never see you
But just like always, we make some plans
And you dont come through
And Im left feeling hurt and angry
At the realisation of how much
I really wanted to see you
I know I cant blame you
You have a life
And youve moved on
You moved on from the idea of us a long time ago
So why cant I?
Why do I find myself listening for the phone
At 2am when I know you never call this late
Hopeing against hope that this once youll make an exception
Because even if its just for a few hours
Id do anything to see you again
Hug you again
Be happy again
Noone ever understood me as well as you do
So why cant you understand what this does to me?
I guess, just like what I thought you felt for me
That understanding was just an illusion

 

[frostyangel]

omg....this has been the same thing that I have been going through, the time passes and your like, ok I will give you another hour, just one more hour...then I'll get pissed off...I'll go out and enjoy my life... you never go out the door when your being stood up...you keep hoping and praying that they'll come, or in your case call...
hey, babe. I'm sorry..
I know it's hard...
*lotz hugz*

 

[x eNiGmA kiD x]

I just got on and I scanned through all the names looking for you name. man this hit me like a tone of bricks... I'm sure you know I relate. I always ejoy reading your pieces, thnx! ~

 

[Angelight]

Ant- this was SOOOOOOOOOO GOOOOOOD. Just like everything else you write. I have spent many a nites in past relationships, or past relationships that were over and i didn't want them to be. Just siiting...waiting...hoping that the phone would ring and it would be him.
My thoughts were exactly this...

At 2am when I know you never call this late
Hopeing against hope that this once youll make an exception
Because even if its just for a few hours
Id do anything to see you again
Hug you again
Be happy again
thanks "darls" this was fab.

 

[runawaygrrrl]

And youve moved on
You moved on from the idea of us a long time ago
So why cant I?
Why do I find myself listening for the phone
At 2am when I know you never call this late
Hopeing against hope that this once youll make an exception
Because even if its just for a few hours
Id do anything to see you again
Hug you again
Be happy again
... yeah. I know how that is

 

[living in solitude]

Why do I find myself listening for the phone
At 2am when I know you never call this late
Hopeing against hope that this once youll make an exception
Because even if its just for a few hours
Id do anything to see you again
Hug you again
Be happy again

<sigh> i wish i would get a call period. nice work!

 

[up all night]

Sometimes the phone is our worst enemy...
Very nice writing. Once again you've captured a moment which I'm sure most of us would understand all too well...

 

[*Jamison*]

*Sighs*
I loved this.
~Jamie

 

[E-girl]

My repeated blind optimism
Is getting just about as predictable
As your unreliability.
Its pathetic really
I was getting by fine being "just frenids"
It makes it easier that I almost never see you
But just like always, we make some plans
And you dont come through
And Im left feeling hurt and angry
At the realisation of how much
I really wanted to see you
ant... this is something i wrote in an email to justin months ago, that i saved as a draft but never sent:

It's 1:36 a.m. And I finally got it into my head that you are not coming (again); even though part of me knew that hours ago. Days again, even, when you first said it. This is not the first time i waited for you, only to be disappointed. In fact, this routine has defined our relationship for so long now that I don't know why I still have any hope.
But the fact remains... i'll always wait for you. I'll always have hope.
Just know that tonight, you managed to break my heart yet again. You'll have to live with that, not me.
I think that last line says it all hon.
*hug*

 

[KHsweety03]

right on the dot
good writing.