A recent experience, and subsequent conversations, plus a few threads here on bluelight have got me thinking about something...
Why do we take acid?
I don't ask this of the people who enjoy it and always have those incredible and mind-expanding experiences. I ask the rest of us, those who most of the time will have a good time, but sometimes freak out, or those like me who quite often freak out, even when things seem well under control...
About a year and a half ago I told myself I'd never take acid again (after the last bad trip which ripped my brain to shreds and had me shattered for about a week) but I've done it again recently... In just about everything else I have the will power to say no, but for some reason, acid seems to weaken my resolve...
And I know there are other people who have also had a few bad experiences, and anytime we take acid there's the chance of a relapse...
So why do it? It's not as if the experience is even that great (at least not at the level I'm at, I can't take too much because then I'm guaranteed to wig out, no matter where I am, how I feel or who I'm with...), tho it does have its worthwhile points, it just doesn't seem to weight up...
But even as I write this I'm considering my next trip, and this not even a month after I last lost the plot. WTF? What gives? Part of me says shoot me before I go insane, but the rest says don't worry about it...
So to the people out there who do sometimes wig out and say 'never again', why do we back down?
Why do we take acid?
I don't ask this of the people who enjoy it and always have those incredible and mind-expanding experiences. I ask the rest of us, those who most of the time will have a good time, but sometimes freak out, or those like me who quite often freak out, even when things seem well under control...
About a year and a half ago I told myself I'd never take acid again (after the last bad trip which ripped my brain to shreds and had me shattered for about a week) but I've done it again recently... In just about everything else I have the will power to say no, but for some reason, acid seems to weaken my resolve...
And I know there are other people who have also had a few bad experiences, and anytime we take acid there's the chance of a relapse...
So why do it? It's not as if the experience is even that great (at least not at the level I'm at, I can't take too much because then I'm guaranteed to wig out, no matter where I am, how I feel or who I'm with...), tho it does have its worthwhile points, it just doesn't seem to weight up...
But even as I write this I'm considering my next trip, and this not even a month after I last lost the plot. WTF? What gives? Part of me says shoot me before I go insane, but the rest says don't worry about it...
So to the people out there who do sometimes wig out and say 'never again', why do we back down?