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Why Can't I Live Forever On Heroin?

Well it's a good thing and a bad thing that you are only 19. It's a bad thing since you may have a long road of addiction ahead of you, but it may be a good thing considering the only people I know that successfully quit opiates for now over 5 years were about your age when they quit. You are young enough for it to just be a phase (not to minimize the severity) as long as you find your next phase in life and leave this one behind. A new hobby, good group of friends, job, etc, are what you will need to move on. Have you looked into transferring over to school in an area where you can't score dope?
 
^ Was just going to say , if you want a fighting chance you have to eliminate everyone who uses in any degree from your life. Tommy has some real good points there. For me I'm holding onto my best friend who isn't an addicted but is working his way towards it.....I need to let go and move on with my life but loyalty is a huge thing for me and also I'm afraid of being basically alone. Me n my bnoy have been thru hell and made it - both of us are doing things well now but for how long ? @ OP Don't gamble with your life like I am, it is a poor way to live and everyone who loves and cares for me still worries greatly which is no way to treat your loved ones. Addiction sucks, at 19 I was so in love with heroin I didn't see their was any point in ever quitting either, it caught up with me likei t does with everyone. Now, countless timesi n treatment and doing what I can working NA it is much harder at 26... please don't let yourself get to that point no need to see others hurt. Best of luck.
 
you can live forever on H but if you can't moderate your use your life will suck i'm working on moderating my use and i'm getting better every script so things are looking up you could always try to have a normal life and a junkie life
 
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This was my story I posted back in December my friend. I felt exactly as you did, "why can't I just shoot dope and live on in peace". Sad reality is society won't allow it, finances won't allow it, and your body won't be too happy with it. I'm almost 8 months clean now =D. Things do get better my friend. The big questions are, do you want to quit using? Is the only thing keeping you on dope is the dopesickness? If you answered "yes" to both of those questions then treatment will work wonders for you. I wanted to stop but my willpower wouldn't let me weather the sickness so I went far away to treatment (3 hour plane ride). The first 20 days for me were rough as all hell (1.5-2.0g a day habit along with benzos) and then everything leveled out pretty quickly for a while. I was getting about 4 hours of sleep without meds by the time I left treatment with 29 days clean. When I got home I took care of some business with lawyers and went to jail for a month a half (screwed up my sleep and eat schedule again) and now I'm on long term outpatient treatment for a drug court. The 90 day mark was a huge achievement and most of my intense cravings and thoughts went away. 6 month mark I felt at about 75%, sleeping is still slightly off, not completely strong yet physically or emotionally. Now at pretty much 8 months I feel at about 85% "normal". Still some issues sleeping (getting to sleep is hard, staying asleep is easy) and my emotions still fluctuate a lot, but docs think I may have cyclothymia or very mild bi-polar. Once you get clean, try to get into physical fitness. Lifting and building muscle, seeing myself get larger and stronger is an incredible feeling. It's a different "high" per se but the confidence I get from it it incredible. Keep us updated here. I love ya buddy, count me in your cheering section =D <3 <3
 
I feel your pain rules and wish i could live on heroin forever too but its just not possible to do so and have a good life. I will say though i was clean for a year before a.d near the end had no cravings amd was sooo happy with life. It takes a looong time for PAWS to end, a lot longer then most people realize

But on the bright side i remember u posted a thread before complaining about how big ur dick is hahaha
no shouldnt hurt with getting a girl once ur clean lmao
 
its so hard to stop once you start.. this horrible lover that I keep telling myself i deserve better but that's just it lol I never leave her.
to stop for someone else is something i have tried multiple times & i keep failing miserably..
it feels so good. I also wish i could just do h all day and not give a fuck about anything else. I know its crazy but the feeling is so right.
I'm also in college struggling with this shit & I'm constantly asking myself if i will ever get better..
nothing better at the end of the night....
 
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