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Benzos Why am i such a benzohead? There's just no benefit.

Mr-Tambourine-Man

Mr-Tambourine-Man

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I've have taken every benzo imaginable for sever years now. yesterday I finally gor a script for Valium, in my opion the most relaxing and euphoric of them all. Now I know I enjoy the effects of opiates far more, but when given my choice I would always go with benzos. I seem to hold an obsessive fascination with. They just seem so damned sexy, versatile, alluring... yet I no longer receive any effect from them. Today I took eight milligrams of Klonopin and it felt no more potent than one milligram had previously. Yet I'm a hopeless benzo junky. I love the pills. The shapes, the colors, the names, their pharmaceutical history. Is anyone else like this. Maddly in love with a substance whose psychological effects are utterly elusive? Does anyone have a theory explaining my obsession. I don't ordinarly take more than the reccomended amount, just knowing they are there makes me feel safe and powerful. Opions and explanations please.
 
I love the pills. The shapes, the colors, the names, their pharmaceutical history.
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I'm like that too, benzos happen to be the most accessible drugs of them all, that's why I like them particularly. But I'm extremely careful, so half a milligram of clonazepam still does the trick.

just knowing they are there makes me feel safe and powerful
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Ditto.

Off-topic: better Rimbaud than Rambo %)
 
I love benzo's as much as the other guy but i know to take it responsibly and carefully. I am not prescribed any although i wish i was sometimes. But come on man get real, everyone would pop what ever their favorite pill is but you gotta be careful. I mean if your so obsessed with benzos you would know all the negative effects of being addicted and dependent on them. By the looks of it, you are looking for a future seizure. I absolutely would want to pop benzos daily because it makes my weed highs o so much better, but i know better. And you popped 8 mil of k-pin and didn't feel it or barely felt it, this is a huge indication that you need to slow down because of your sky rocketed tolerance.
 
wow i surprised you are still able to get off on diazepam if you barely feel 8mgs of clonazepam. i'm scripted clonazepam. and a while ago my psychiatrist wanted me to try diazepam to see if it worked any better. i literally got no relief at all from it. even in the 60mg dose range. i account this to the fact that i was on a high dose of clonazepam and abusing it for over a year when he tried this. but he didn't even do the benzo conversion right. he switched me to 20mgs of diazepam a day when i was previously on 3mgs of clonazepam a day. i don't think it's because he suspected me of abusing them because he immediately switched me back to clonazepam and at a higher dose plus he put me on alprazolam. which was a blessing and a curse because it greatly improved my panic attacks but that's also when my benzo abuse got out of control.

how much diazepam do you have to take to feel good?

but back to your original question. yes i totally understand. i don't abuse my benzos anymore. but i still love getting the new script and knowing i'm good for awhile. it' makes me feel safe also knowing i have them when i need them.

benzos are are also hell. i have no idea how the hell i can ever fully come off them. even though i'm down to 2mgs twice a day, twice a week. it was really hard getting down to that. and while that still is on the high side it's nothing compared to what i was doing. 8-14mgs of alprazlam, clonazepam mix. which was usually 5 times a week. so i feel i've come a long way.
 
Actually I get more relief/relaxation/euphoria of ten mg of Valium than I do any amount of Klonopin. Valium is just my benzo of choice, my ultimate chill pill. I just love it. Being on Subs I can't get anything off opiods and valium has become my cloudy/dreamy/ bliss candy.
 
I'm at the stage where benzos are daily in my life, because my anxiety ended up getting really bad over time...its paired with an SSRI of course.

But I absolutely love my alprazolam. When i can't get prescribed it anymore, i don't know what I'm gonna do. Diazepam is nice for more recreational purposes, klonopin doesn't seem to help. Xanax relieves anxiety like nothing else, diazepam doesn't compare. My doctor told me that with the benzos, everyone has one that works best for them, and no one will ever say "prescribe me whatever."

You're a benzohead because they feel fucking awesome. No effect from them? Anxiety relief is the only affect most of us who take the recommended dose are looking for, and if they do that for you, thats still something. That's the "safe and powerful knowing they are there" feeling you describe I believe.
 
That's an interesting question you posit, Mr Tambourine Man... liking the effects of something else more but being addicted to something else. I like benzos, but have never had enough access to become an addict. I am fascinated by them though like you, but would still choose opioids over them in most cases.
 
Mr-Tambourine-Man said:
I've have taken every benzo imaginable for sever years now. yesterday I finally gor a script for Valium, in my opion the most relaxing and euphoric of them all. Now I know I enjoy the effects of opiates far more, but when given my choice I would always go with benzos. I seem to hold an obsessive fascination with. They just seem so damned sexy, versatile, alluring... yet I no longer receive any effect from them. Today I took eight milligrams of Klonopin and it felt no more potent than one milligram had previously. Yet I'm a hopeless benzo junky. I love the pills. The shapes, the colors, the names, their pharmaceutical history. Is anyone else like this. Maddly in love with a substance whose psychological effects are utterly elusive? Does anyone have a theory explaining my obsession. I don't ordinarly take more than the reccomended amount, just knowing they are there makes me feel safe and powerful. Opions and explanations please.
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I am the same way with opiates. Though the only reason I feel a sense of comfort is because I know when my meicine cabinet is full, that I don't have to be sick. I just did my favorite part of the day. I wait until its been about 5 hours since my last ose, then I pop a 2mg ativan sublingual, and it knocks me out. Then when I wake up in the morning, its been like 14 hours since my last dose, I am in severe withdrawal, and I inject 32mgs of dilaudid. It feels like fucking heaven.

Youare kinda right though, there is nothing like benzo's. I use them, for sleep and anxiety/stress relief. Every month I buy 30 10mg valium, 30 2mg Xanax, 30 2mg Ativan Sublingual, and 30 Midazolam tabs online. They are so easy to get online now, but I will sometimes get them locally. I love slamming the dormicum. No rush to injecting benzos, but just the intensity is awesome. But yeah, they are a major crutch for me, and I do not feel confident in making it through the day without some in my cabinet. Its so nice to just know if your having anxiety, wham! gone.
 
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I'm right there with you, I'm struggling to stop using IV H.

Intrestingly enough my favorite benzo is Valium (I agree about the euphoria).

If you put a gram of dope in front of me or a bottle of blue tens (Valium), I'd take the Valium. I don't know why. I just love 'em and what they do to me. %)

I don't understand how you can take 8mg Klonopin and not feel it, while ten mgs of Valium gets you good. :\ I believe you dude, just sounds strange.
 
^ We're all wired differently, and each benzo makes a different effect (remember Captain Heroin and his weird sensitivity to clonazepam).

Anyway, diazepam is a strange benzo, I love it but if you give me a full bottle, i can't restrain myself from emptying it on the spot. Clonazepam, I love it too but I'm more responsible with it (although I do get some euphoria from both).
 
Has anyone here tried Cyclobenzaprine?

Good god do those things knock me on my ass. A single 10mg pill and it takes nearly takes a crane to lift me out of bed.

Anyone else?
 
Yeah, I just get no relief from Klonopin (like Captain Heroin). Valium, while a weak benzo, is just the one that does it for me, and only on 10mgs a day. Xanax is too short and too addicting (the crack of benzos). Diazepam is where its at.
 
ranimal said:
Has anyone here tried Cyclobenzaprine?

Good god do those things knock me on my ass. A single 10mg pill and it takes nearly takes a crane to lift me out of bed.

Anyone else?
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Never tried but I take amitriptyline and I heard they are two related drugs. Amitriptyline is a sedative bomb too, although not really a good muscle relaxer.
Sorry for the off-topicness.
 
I also have a weird love for the benzos. I try to take breaks in my use, but just knowing there are "band-aids" (good benzos) laying around to patch my daily wounds (stress, etc), is just an indescribable feeling.

I'm also going to point out that I also find diazepam to be by far the best benzo, better than handfuls of clonazepam any day...
 
BollWeevil said:
I also have a weird love for the benzos. I try to take breaks in my use, but just knowing there are "band-aids" (good benzos) laying around to patch my daily wounds (stress, etc), is just an indescribable feeling.

I'm also going to point out that I also find diazepam to be by far the best benzo, better than handfuls of clonazepam any day...
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How many have you tried?

I would rank diazepam one of the best common ones RX'd in the US.

I also like benzos, since I have insomnia some nights (sometimes more than others). I also hate feeling anxiety, though I have been feeling less anxious as time goes on.
 
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