Doc put me on risperdone for this. Looking the drug up I'm on and I Dont get why its been given to me. Its a dopamine and serotonin antagonist. Is that what I want? Why do I wanna block dopamine. He said its right for me. But Im confused about it.
Why don't you ask your doctor this same thing? They don't typically hide information about why you've been prescribed something, or how medications work. Asking strangers on the internet why a doctor has prescribed you something is not going to be very helpful, as no one here knows about your past experiences, your current issues, or your health status as in-depth as your physician does. Next time you see him ask him to explain why he thinks it's right for you and how it works. In a way, like Folley said, they do just throw different meds at you sometimes- every single body is unique and works a bit differently, so they have to try different things until they find something that works for your unique body and brain (if, in this case, medication is actually the answer, which it may be, who knows until you find something that works?). The same is done with blood pressure medications, asthma inhalers, and most other medications- it is often necessary to try different options to see what works best.
Rispiridone is used for a multitude of psychiatric issues. It's your right to know why it's being given to you! If you feel that the side effects of the medication are too difficult to deal with, as it can cause dizziness and drowsiness among other things, communicate that. Doctors go on a "risk-versus-benefit" logic- if when you're on the medication your head is cloudy, but when you're off it you experience an overwhelming anxiety that makes functioning normally impossible, the benefit may outweigh the risk. That being said, there may be a different medication that offers less negative side effects or takes away more of your negative symptoms. Or maybe it would be better to try to taper off, like you said, to see how you do with no medication at all.
You also have no been on the med for very long, and it can take the body a while to adjust to it or for the therapeutic effects to fully kick in, so keep that in mind too. Most importantly is that if you decide absolutely NO, I do not want to be on this drug or on any drugs, get the DOCTOR to ween you off! Unless you're involuntarily committed on a psychiatric ward, as far as I know nobody can force you to take medication. But serious medical emergencies have occurred when people have suddenly stopped taking their psychiatric medications, or when they attempted to cut back on their own using improper technique. Better to be safe than to risk doing further damage, my friend! Good luck!!