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Who here keeps coming back to alcohol?

Apollo16

Apollo16

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It seems to be the only drug apart from powerful opiates (too illegal and expensive to obtain easily), that eases all of my problems. When I am drunk, I finally feel like more than just a social outcast loser. I finally feel a sense of worth and a sense of self confidence. It sound pathetic but that is the truth. Right now I am fairly drunk, but feel FAR more happy than when sober. I think that this is the alcoholics mind- a man who feels more sober when drunk than actually sober. It is fucked up. I am even considering punding some energy drinks and lasting out until morning when I will keep drinking. The urge to drink 24/7 is incredibly strong with me, I just feel so muc more normal and confident when drunk. Only opiates have offered the same feeling, but they are next to impossible to obtain in my area.
 
I feel you Apollo16. I was the same way for a number of years. Alcohol still would be my drug of choice if I didn't have my 2 year old son. I got really bad to the point to where I actually got 5 DUI's. I felt that alcohol was the only thing in this world that could ever make me feel any better about myself, make me have a good time or help me face the day. Honestly, I still feel like that a lot of days. I still think about drinking a lot although it has become relatively easier. You just have to find some type of happiness in your life that overpowers the great feeling that alcohol gives you or absolutely hit rock bottom. For me, I had a combination of the 2. I have lost my drivers license for 8 years and I have a beautiful 2 year old son. I really hope the best for you because I truly understand the incredible power that alcohol can have over one's life. God be with you!!
 
I'm a happy drunk, love alcohol, but I can abstain during the work week. Last weekend I tried not to drink, couldn't do it, though only had a couple drinks, and sort of regretted it (failed the goal, and didn't drink enough to feel good).

I just take it day by day now and recognize that daily drinking is bad for my liver and my tolerance.

Alcohol is a fun replacement for benzos and widely available, great social lubricant... Just gotta moderate
 
Well, I use to love drinking, in high school I would be tanked by myself every night, I guese starting around 15, so my first addiction I guese? Now, I do not even think about it...I've noticed the only time I think about drinking is when I don't have Opiates/Benzo's(or some drug that works on the gaba receptors...i do have anxiety) Sooo if I don't have them after about a month or a few weeks I will start getting drunk every night or start drinking in the evening, or if it's a day off slowly get a buzz on all day till I pass out that night...But as long as I have opiates, or some other Gaba drug, I will take it over alcohol ANY day, that includes opiate Maintaince drugs that have basically no euphoria of short-acting opiates, since being on Subs I think I've drink twice in a year and a half. But ya, take away my drugs of choice and I will start drinking...would rather be on Sub/Methadone Maintaince or Opium Tea or have some xanax or a mixture of benzos than alcohol...just feels dirty, but without anything else I turn to it..cheap,sociailly acceptable, and on every corner.
 
treezy z said:
i used to drink 3 40s a day of steel reserve and OE and shit, now i don't drink at all, just makes me tired.
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I'm drinking framingHAMMER by Jacks Abby 10% porter brewed IN YOUR TOWN right now. Sorry dawg ur missing out

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Oh, the good ole' Steele Reserve...I had some good times with those 40's, this was when I had no acesss to anything really(had no job, so was having to depend on my rents to send me money) so being the addict I am I started drinking 2-3 40's of Steel Reserve...I think the alcohol was 8%??? All I know is me and my bro and law got FUCKED alot on those, I mean they were under two dollars,lol.
 
Yes, it is, but FUCKS ya up,lol. Was on a budget. Take a 40 ounce to the gut and Chug it! Sorry, I know this thread is not about drinking alcohol I think, was just remembering my drunk days...god, either happy, crying, yelling at someone, wasn't in a good place mentally at the time, but most of the time it was happy, but the few times it wasn't it was bad,lol.
 
The last time I drank Steele Reserve I got a hangover from ONE 40 oz. bottle that was worse than nights where I'd split a fifth of Jack Daniels with someone.

Both of my co-workers who had been drinking SR with me that night agreed that it was a very regrettable decision.
 
Steel reserve and Heineken are why I didn't think I liked beer until I could routinely buy my own

Fuck nasty ass beer, there's so much good stuff around... Why drink it?
 
I only drink strong alcohol that will get me drunk as fuck. Not beer. Beer is pointless to me since it takes 20 to get me drunk.
My dad was a heavy drinker, and I had alcohol when i was little on multiple occasions, which probably gave me my extremely high tolerance. I'll drink a bottle of hennesey and be slightly buzzed.
I started drinking at age 13 and it wasn't much at first but now I like to stock up on liquor and drink until my depression goes away.
I guess I do come back to it a lot. I need a break from weed sometimes.
 
Me, fer shore.. I love Ethanol, everything about it.. My latest was a few month binder of sun up to sun down drinking, I enjoy what booze has to offer. Though it's been 10 days since I have drank, I crave it quite hard, esp if people are drinking around me.. The smell, sight, knowing how great it would be to get shithoused.. 20 more days till I can drink, once that point hits, I may or may not celebrate on the weekend with some cold ones.. Or 20. If I wasn't drinking, I felt tired, when I drank, I powered up and was ready for any goddamn thing.
 
Definitely, alcohol was my first love as a teenager but once I hit 19, 20 benzos and opiates become my favorite now I'm 22 and have been doing a lot of meth lately. But still if I only got 3 or 4$ and I wanna get high it's a short walk to the liquor store haha I still love getting a 40 of Mickeys or steel reserve ;)
 
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