Ganjcat
Bluelighter
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I'm having the worst one yet it's like a panic attack because I feel so sure something bad is gonna happen it usually happens vwhen I'm over using and I guess having methadone heroin weed and beer throughout the day and now in the midst of smoking some ten ten heroin it's not to surprising but although nothing bad seems to happen even though I feel like it will, I can't help worry that this time something bad really is gonna happen and the list of bad things that could happen is high even though I don't think anything worse can happen than I've already experienced in the past such as homelessness suicidal thoughts being some of the lesser ones the really bad stuff I don't want to talk about
I guess what I'm really asking is how do other people deal with these horrible thoughts and feelings because I can't enjoy my buzz when I'm worried something's gonna happen...
Anyway I'm gonna put my gear down and probably save it until I wake up I will be happy if I manage to for now I'm gonna put some music on my headphones cus it's 5am here in the UK so can't have it loud make myself a coffee sit in the garden and smoke a fag wish I had some good ole ganja left though still
I guess what I'm really asking is how do other people deal with these horrible thoughts and feelings because I can't enjoy my buzz when I'm worried something's gonna happen...
Anyway I'm gonna put my gear down and probably save it until I wake up I will be happy if I manage to for now I'm gonna put some music on my headphones cus it's 5am here in the UK so can't have it loud make myself a coffee sit in the garden and smoke a fag wish I had some good ole ganja left though still
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