ok so i got fucked up again and then of course i got caught
my question is how do i make myself want to stop i mean they say you have to want it but i mean i am a iv heroin junkie i could very well be dead before i "want it"
right now i am kinda seperated from the scene which is fine and i am real nervous about whats gonna happen when i get back
a lot of people really want me to do things right but its so frustrating i feel like i am going crazy sometimes
i could go on a run and get my own place and all but i dont know if i have the balls to do that
i would really like to be a normal college student and be able to party like one cuz i do like to go out and have fun i miss it alot
there is a possibility of me going back on suboxone maintenance i dont really know if thats a good thing or not but i know getting off of that was the hardest thing i have ever done
it sucks all the stuff i like is taken away and i am unhappy with myself because i have gained weight with this bullshit
i am looking for something and i am not sure what
my question is how do i make myself want to stop i mean they say you have to want it but i mean i am a iv heroin junkie i could very well be dead before i "want it"
right now i am kinda seperated from the scene which is fine and i am real nervous about whats gonna happen when i get back
a lot of people really want me to do things right but its so frustrating i feel like i am going crazy sometimes
i could go on a run and get my own place and all but i dont know if i have the balls to do that
i would really like to be a normal college student and be able to party like one cuz i do like to go out and have fun i miss it alot
there is a possibility of me going back on suboxone maintenance i dont really know if thats a good thing or not but i know getting off of that was the hardest thing i have ever done
it sucks all the stuff i like is taken away and i am unhappy with myself because i have gained weight with this bullshit
i am looking for something and i am not sure what