when you put things in perspective...

...there's probably millions of people who would jump in your shoes, regardless of the problems or difficulties you think you have in life.

so why are you still feeling sorry for yourself?

why don't you just suck it up, move on and live life..

there's nothing stopping you.. nothing but yourself.

so with that in mind, why the fuck does it appear that life is such a downer at times. why does it sometimes feel like it's time to give up. give up the relentless pursuit to progress in life. i'm not talking suicide, that's ridiculous. but there are times where i feel like that if i could give my life to someone else who would appreciate it and make more of it then me, then i'd do it in a heart beat.

then i realise it's just me feeling sorry for myself, and nothing frustrates me more then the feeling of feeling sorry for myself.

just shut up and move on, is what i tell myself. but at times it takes more energy and motivation then i can create. on top of that, the only person i share my true feelings with, is myself. i've always been that kind of person that never really opened up to anyone, not my parents, not my brother, and very little to even my best friend.

it's not like i sit at home all day feeling sorry for myself. i have made tough decisions in the past with the aim to progress, to do something about it. progress where/how exactly, i'm not sure.. i guess happiness. happiness is when you wake up in the morning with a smile on your face without even thinking or trying.

my tough decision was moving half way around the world to live in a place i knew no one, and attempt to create a new life. that life included being someone different, someone i wanted to be & be proud of... not the miserable cunt who felt sorry for himself, thinking the world owed him something.

i managed a year there, sure it was a good experience i guess, did a little travel, but now 1 year later i'm back and it seems like nothing's changed. still feels like i'm 'stuck' and going no where..

but the one belief i try and pride myself on is that; you always have at least two choices in life, regardless what it is.. you can either except it for what it is, or do something about it in attempt to change it. and as hard as it may seem at times, God help me, i'm gonna die tryin'.

 

Good for you! I've always had trouble making necessary changes in my life, and I admire those with the wherewithal to pull themselves out of their ruts.

 

If you can identify something in your life you'd like to change, don't give yourself the luxury of a choice between doing it, and not doing it. There's only 1 choice, and that's to just do it.

I guess the hard part sometimes is knowing what to actually do to change the problem you've identified. One thing's for sure, if you keep doing the same thing you're doing, nothing will change. In many ways, it's just a process of elimination. It's what you don't know that matters.