Euphoric Bliss
Bluelighter
I dont know if this really belongs in social but i just wanted to say something somewhere.....
I went to a 21st on Saturday night of a close friend...who was serving free alcohol, everything bar shots and cocktails...
so my question is, when the hell do i stop? ...that should actually read when the hell should i stop...because evidentally the answer is i dont stop until its too late.
I think i seriously need help. Saturday night/sunday morning/sunday afternoon was the scariest day of my life...alcohol is my drug of choice but i just dont know when to stop. Ok i was drinking *cough cough skoling* wine and i dont usually drink wine...and what was a top night turned out to be really scary. I couldnt stop throwing up, until 5pm sunday afternoon. I am 99% sure i had alcohol poisoning and I realised i have turned into a binge drinker
This is not something I am proud of and as a result I have given up alcohol.....and after having already decided not to do drugs because I thought I wouldnt be able to control myself I am beginning to think I have serious issues.....and I thought I was a happy person. Shit I dont know what to do. I'm such a dickhead.
Self inflicted pain is bad enough but whats worse is having stomach cramps 3 days later because I was throwing up so much. I think i may have even strained a muscle, lol....funny as it is i was scared shitless.
ok ok ok enough rambling, but i just want to say, what the hell happened to going out and having a good time without screwing your body up? I cant even remember the crossover anymore, all i know is i do myself more damage than harm. Am i the only one out there? well i know i'm not, but i just cant believe it has come to me giving up EVERYTHING
that is all
~Euphoric
I went to a 21st on Saturday night of a close friend...who was serving free alcohol, everything bar shots and cocktails...
so my question is, when the hell do i stop? ...that should actually read when the hell should i stop...because evidentally the answer is i dont stop until its too late.
I think i seriously need help. Saturday night/sunday morning/sunday afternoon was the scariest day of my life...alcohol is my drug of choice but i just dont know when to stop. Ok i was drinking *cough cough skoling* wine and i dont usually drink wine...and what was a top night turned out to be really scary. I couldnt stop throwing up, until 5pm sunday afternoon. I am 99% sure i had alcohol poisoning and I realised i have turned into a binge drinker

Self inflicted pain is bad enough but whats worse is having stomach cramps 3 days later because I was throwing up so much. I think i may have even strained a muscle, lol....funny as it is i was scared shitless.
ok ok ok enough rambling, but i just want to say, what the hell happened to going out and having a good time without screwing your body up? I cant even remember the crossover anymore, all i know is i do myself more damage than harm. Am i the only one out there? well i know i'm not, but i just cant believe it has come to me giving up EVERYTHING
that is all
~Euphoric