Squeaks
Bluelighter
I apologize right now but this little "poem" will probably not make much sense.... or does it!!
When I'm Drunk
I truly open up
When I'm drunk
People don't understand
When I'm drunk
I make no sense to those around me... (or do I really)
When I'm drunk they think I'm wierd
Why can't people understand I don't hide behind a drink
But it's rather that drink that helps me understand myself most of all.
I am going to let you in a little secret....
I am a cold uncaring thoughtless person
Yes I may have this little facade that I put on
but when I'm drunk
that little facde crumbles to the ground
You would think people would understand...
but all they see it as me being drunk!!
Yes I "Do" care to be nice and thoughtfull...
But thats to those who I don't let get to close to me.....
Those who I get a bit closer to... thats when they get a wakeup call!!!
At first they think its stupidity on my part!
I mean how many times can they tell me not to do something or say something......
But don't they understand that what they say really doesnt quite sink in which is why I am found repeating myself over and over again....
Mayby after telling them they can come to realize that I may be conceited or spoiled....
But can't they come to realize that I have already come to realize this on my own and I am 100% okay with this???
Yes I am concieted as fuck!
I drink, party, hurt my body and don't care even a little bit about it....
With that said I am fine with it and just want to be left alone with it.
How can you though when you have friends who care?... My problem is what they care about and what I care about are two different things.My only fear is most of my friends once they realize this they drop me.......
I am okay with this because you have to be who you are no matter how it affects someone.... but whats makes me be fearful most of all is when I try to tell someone this and all they see it as me when I'm drunk!!!!
Don't shut me up when I am this way becuase this is the real me.... If you don't like it then theres the door........ Please when i am drunk I make sense.... if I don't make sense in my sober life then please realize that
When I'm am drunk you could make more sense than anything I ever say sober.......
Once again I know most of you will not understand this.........
I truly feel that sometimes someone youa re frustrated with WOULD be a bluelighter cause then he would see this and undesrtsand that he needs to be my friend no matter how non-moral I am.......
When I'm Drunk
I truly open up
When I'm drunk
People don't understand
When I'm drunk
I make no sense to those around me... (or do I really)
When I'm drunk they think I'm wierd
Why can't people understand I don't hide behind a drink
But it's rather that drink that helps me understand myself most of all.
I am going to let you in a little secret....
I am a cold uncaring thoughtless person
Yes I may have this little facade that I put on
but when I'm drunk
that little facde crumbles to the ground
You would think people would understand...
but all they see it as me being drunk!!
Yes I "Do" care to be nice and thoughtfull...
But thats to those who I don't let get to close to me.....
Those who I get a bit closer to... thats when they get a wakeup call!!!
At first they think its stupidity on my part!
I mean how many times can they tell me not to do something or say something......
But don't they understand that what they say really doesnt quite sink in which is why I am found repeating myself over and over again....
Mayby after telling them they can come to realize that I may be conceited or spoiled....
But can't they come to realize that I have already come to realize this on my own and I am 100% okay with this???
Yes I am concieted as fuck!
I drink, party, hurt my body and don't care even a little bit about it....
With that said I am fine with it and just want to be left alone with it.
How can you though when you have friends who care?... My problem is what they care about and what I care about are two different things.My only fear is most of my friends once they realize this they drop me.......
I am okay with this because you have to be who you are no matter how it affects someone.... but whats makes me be fearful most of all is when I try to tell someone this and all they see it as me when I'm drunk!!!!
Don't shut me up when I am this way becuase this is the real me.... If you don't like it then theres the door........ Please when i am drunk I make sense.... if I don't make sense in my sober life then please realize that
When I'm am drunk you could make more sense than anything I ever say sober.......
Once again I know most of you will not understand this.........
I truly feel that sometimes someone youa re frustrated with WOULD be a bluelighter cause then he would see this and undesrtsand that he needs to be my friend no matter how non-moral I am.......
