when I was a little girl
you were such a mystery
as if you held the world in your hands
....and all you had to do was smile
you were a presence drifting in and out of my life
as I grew my world became cluttered
yet you have remained hidden in my mind
a certain smell would bring you back
to when I was little....
and you amaze me still
I rarely remember you angry
I rarely saw you sad
mostly I remember the feeling of being in your presence
the presence of someone important
of whom I was intrigued
time is running after you now
it has one hand on your back
it remains at your heals
and I imagine you tired of the chase
yet I do not imagine you afraid
I grow angry at that which has poisoned you
spreading through you
relentless in its chase
darkening the light in your eyes
consuming the man I remember
tainting my memories
I look back at the little I know of the person you are
I could have known more
It numbs me
you barley know who I have become
I wonder what you would think
If you know that I care at all
that I realize that I was wrong
a devastating realization
that soon you may be gone
I will remember you the way your were when I was young
strong
silent
I picture your shoes
you with her
aged memories
collecting dust like your old records
sitting on your lap
how sadness would creep in when you both would leave
I remember being five
how it always seemed to rain
I am older now
and you remain a mystery
maybe you always will
we are blessed to have known you
and pray you have no regrets
that you'll know how much you are loved
Heaven will return your smile
and I will remember you the way I knew you....
when I was I little girl
you were such a mystery
as if you held the world in your hands
....and all you had to do was smile
you were a presence drifting in and out of my life
as I grew my world became cluttered
yet you have remained hidden in my mind
a certain smell would bring you back
to when I was little....
and you amaze me still
I rarely remember you angry
I rarely saw you sad
mostly I remember the feeling of being in your presence
the presence of someone important
of whom I was intrigued
time is running after you now
it has one hand on your back
it remains at your heals
and I imagine you tired of the chase
yet I do not imagine you afraid
I grow angry at that which has poisoned you
spreading through you
relentless in its chase
darkening the light in your eyes
consuming the man I remember
tainting my memories
I look back at the little I know of the person you are
I could have known more
It numbs me
you barley know who I have become
I wonder what you would think
If you know that I care at all
that I realize that I was wrong
a devastating realization
that soon you may be gone
I will remember you the way your were when I was young
strong
silent
I picture your shoes
you with her
aged memories
collecting dust like your old records
sitting on your lap
how sadness would creep in when you both would leave
I remember being five
how it always seemed to rain
I am older now
and you remain a mystery
maybe you always will
we are blessed to have known you
and pray you have no regrets
that you'll know how much you are loved
Heaven will return your smile
and I will remember you the way I knew you....
when I was I little girl
