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When does the light at the end of the DARK tunnel appear?

i got addicted to opiates due to chronic pain from surgeries as well. AA meetings have helped me a bit. I have people I can talk to that understand addiction and the distorted thinking that comes along with it, these are people that can get you on the right track.
 
DETROIT*edm*JUNKIE said:
i got addicted to opiates due to chronic pain from surgeries as well. AA meetings have helped me a bit. I have people I can talk to that understand addiction and the distorted thinking that comes along with it, these are people that can get you on the right track.
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thanks for your input i deal with a great sense of loss by not being the person i was meant to be, i feel i have wasted so many of my best years to drugs
 
^When you get to be my age (61) you miraculously stop beating yourself up for 'wasting' time/opportunities/potential etc and you start to see your whole journey as something that (for often mysterious reasons) you had to do in exactly the way that you did it. My mistakes, wrong turns, fear-based reactions etc. now look to me in hindsight as the kick in the ass teachers that I apparently needed to move forward. All experience is rich in knowledge and revelation if you open yourself to learning what it has to offer. Take addiction. If you had a choice between an addiction counselor that had personal experience with addiction and one that did not, who would you choose?

And that concept of best years? I don't think anyone can possibly know what his or her best years are. The common perception is that everything is best done young-- finishing school, choosing a career and getting it started, raising children etc. etc. With the exception of the last one I think this is mostly myth. Most of my friends changed careers late in life, many (including my mom) went back to school in their late thirties or forties, some in their sixties.

Relax, accept and love yourself and keep doing all the honest and rewarding work of understanding why you do the things you do. When you can approach your own life without judgment but with both clarity and compassion you can begin to transform everything from the inside rippling outward. It sounds to me like you are already on this path.<3
 
You're comments were heartfelt, compassionate, enlightening and well received!!! I would like to ease up on the quilt part, that in itself is tough, but I'm working on it. I have a perfectionist type personality, which is useless since no one is perfect, nor will we ever be. I am strenuous on myself and I'll copy your comment/post and use it for reference. Honestly the kindest comments I've ever read. Thank you for taking time to input your wisdom and encouragement. Grateful that you took time to respond! Many Thanks Herbavore! xx xx
 
xxjadedxx said:
Personal experience with tramadol (6 years).... it's an amazing drug i've found for W/D, helps minimize symptoms and allows me to function during the day without feeling like crap. I've never had an issue with stopping it cold turkey but i've never taken it longer than a week or 2 max and never at super high doses for seizure reasons. Ask your doc why they rx'd that to you...
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So wait a second im a little confused. You used tramadol to help minimize withdrawal from stronger stuff. An example would be like using codeine during IV heroin withdrawL which MIGHT take the edge off, but then stopping the codeine after a week or 2 you have no withdrawal?????

Were you still in withdrawal when on tramadol? Then jumped off and LITERALLY had no WD?

If thets the case why doesnt every addict just take done tramadol for a few days taped off it, and be fone with withdrawals do simple?

Someone please explain this to me?
 
Go build something or make something. If u like to paint do that. Get the biggest canvas u can get and work on it. I dont paint but i like to build things. Put a patio out side my house it is twenty feet x forty feet. Took me a couple of weeks but kept me occupied. After i built a wall along one side of it and then started on some decking. Am two months in to it now and getting up early sometime before twelve and working on it is a great help to me. Going to the builders yard and getting supplies and such. Have spent alot of my savings on it but fuck it, it makes me feel good and takes the mind off the bullshit. Peace
 
Meant to say reading this shit will make u feel worse. Get rid of the internet for a few months and see how u feel. The net just blind sides u with shit that we could do with out. Peace
 
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