Hi all, im back again for some support...
i have been trying everything in my power to beat depression and anxiety but how much longer must i battle these demons?
i quit all drugs, beat valium addiction and withrawls take my anti-depressants daily, workout 4+ times a week ride to work dialy, cut right down on alcohol to just a few beers on the weekend moved out of home, stopped friendships with users, positive thinking and had a holiday.
but still i am depressed daily and want to attempt suicide again for the 4th time or self-harm i mean seriously i cant keep doing this everyday for years... it's gonna put me in prison, mental instition or dead. i mean what else is there to do apart from ride it out.... i lost all my friends after the move they wont even drive 30 minutes to see me and there primary school friends thats pretty pathetic i mean it could be because i was always so fucked up around them and brought down the mood, but im clean now. meh i just wish to be better anyways i have plenty of support from family and when i think of suicide again i know how much pain they went through but god damn this is hell! argh i just wont to drown myself this time!
i have been trying everything in my power to beat depression and anxiety but how much longer must i battle these demons?
i quit all drugs, beat valium addiction and withrawls take my anti-depressants daily, workout 4+ times a week ride to work dialy, cut right down on alcohol to just a few beers on the weekend moved out of home, stopped friendships with users, positive thinking and had a holiday.
but still i am depressed daily and want to attempt suicide again for the 4th time or self-harm i mean seriously i cant keep doing this everyday for years... it's gonna put me in prison, mental instition or dead. i mean what else is there to do apart from ride it out.... i lost all my friends after the move they wont even drive 30 minutes to see me and there primary school friends thats pretty pathetic i mean it could be because i was always so fucked up around them and brought down the mood, but im clean now. meh i just wish to be better anyways i have plenty of support from family and when i think of suicide again i know how much pain they went through but god damn this is hell! argh i just wont to drown myself this time!