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What's the worst thing you've done to get drug money?

I've always looked a lot younger than I am.
When I was 17 I looked about 13. Some guy THOUGHT I WAS about 13. When he found out I wasn't he still wanted to uh...monetarily compensation me for my company...under the condition I wear my old school uniform and pretend I was 13 the whole time and to never "break character".
I felt really gross the whole time and have felt shitty about it ever since 'cause I essentially catered to a pedo who only wanted me because I looked very underage.
But I try and tell myself that maybe that kind of thing stops him from doing anything with an ACTUAL child?
 
I use to hook up with men & would come out with both drugs & money.
And I didn't even have to bottom for them or anything, I was always the top. lol

I refused to steal or harm anybody else for my fix, but I was happy to harm myself to get it.


I think people who harm or rob others & then blame their addiction or the drugs are just shitty ass fucking people. Probably were already shitty people to begin with & their drug use just gave them an excuse to be the shitty person they already were.

Sure, I stole my moms drugs & traded em some times. That was different. Hell my mom had me trade her meds for money all the time as well, so we could buy cigarettes. But to go rob some stranger or break into some one's house or otherwise do something to somebody who has nothing to do with my problem? Nah, fuck that. My problem is my problem.
 
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Worst book back my energy bill and pay it 12 days later.
OK and spending saved money i got from my Granny,
ment for school/ driver license. On ? A.o. drugs.

But with two jobs and income from the state to study.
Party s, clothes, Coke, records and who knows.

Stupid things i did as well. Like buying 2 gram Speed [cheap af].
MDMA,, receiving the pills and 2 grams of Coke [pricey].
And gave em back. while i knew it would be unnoticed. A well.

Or a order with a UK RC-vendor, first time my order didn t arrive.
Got contact told to wait a week, nothing so they did a reshipment.
3 weeks after the OG order finally did arrive, what to do keep it sure.

No i 1-st contacted the vendor, explained what happened.
And asked what to do, i wanted to sent it back. Got no reply back.
My luck. But do think i am a bit too hon-oust.
 
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I let a man give me 50 bucks for a kiss (no tongue)

I'm also prone to shoplifting beer and kratom , hate that though!
 
Chemically enhanced, I think if they were totally honest with themselves every single person who has needed drugs has done something they wish they hadn't. Please, try to be kinder to yourself and remember that it was the other person who had the problem, not you. And I know that some of the things I've done in the past I'd never ever do if I hadn't had that drug maggot worming it's way around my brain. I've come to realise that feeling bad about anything is a fast track to either relapse or when I was using a way that required me to need far more drugs to erase the pain of the experience.

I'd have to say that I've never met anyone who became reliant on drugs because their first time using was just to see what it was like. There are so many more things with risk attached to them that you can try. No, every one of them had something they wanted relief from, done kind of trauma that left them feeling shitty inside.

So in my opinion I believe that whatever the reason you used or still use you already have enough demons, that's without the ones we gradually accumulate along the way. So pleased don't feel bad about the behaviour of someone else who, as you said, would be that way with someone else if you hadn't been there. Your post really touched my heart as I know just how you feel sweetheart.
 
I ripped off a guy with Tourette’s for 50$ when I was 18 and I still kinda feel bad about it. He was looking for a friend and I took advantage of it. All for a 30 min crack session . Not worth the weight on my conscience even 15 years later
 
And definitely a ton more shit but I don’t need to get into all of that. Ive ripped off family, ive ripped off friends. Ive had low bottoms with crack, IV coke, meth, heroin, fent . I mean it comes with the territory ; but doesn’t excuse shitty behaviour and the older ive got, the more meaning this has. If you can’t afford your drugs and have no control, then you probably have no business being a part of society until youve dealt with your issues .
 
canadianpeduser, you're so right. I don't think I've ever met anyone who could truly afford the cost of the drugs the consumed. I mean Christ, if Jamie Blandford(Winston Churchill's great grandson) was convicted of theft, considering the wealth from various trust funds couldn't afford his drugs what chance do the rest of us have?

Everyone has done something in their lives that they look back on and I'm talking about people who have never been addicted to drugs. I think that addicts are conditioned to take on a lot of guilt for things they've done simply to perpetuate the myth "drugs bad, people addicted to the must also be bad." We make the rest of society feel better about their own shortcomings cos "at least I don't do drugs "

Seriously though, I often wondered if I felt more guilty as it confirmed what I was always being told, and that was that I was worthless, just a junkie. But when you're in extreme emotional pain and you know your drug of choice would alleviate that pain, if only for a short time, what are you going to do? If you can get the cash you need legitimately, ia non nasty way of course you would. But legit is rarelan option so you do whatever you can to get rid of the damn pain. And if it's not pain you're dealing with it's the habit you've got into that enables you to feel something.

It's not as cut and dried as the question makes it appear at first. There are so many variables that change each one of us who have done something we regret due to the craving for our particular doc. But thats just my take on it and like the things people will do to get their doc, the reasons are just as numerous.

By the way, feeling guilty and being unable to deal with it is a huge reason these people end up doing things they wouldn't do if it were not for their need for drugs.
 
I'd just like to add, and I'm not making fun of the guy with Tourette's or making fun of your post. But I've only seen one programme about Tourette's"syndrome. This young boy, about 15 was walking around the supermarket with his mum, swearing like a sailor sat half a pound of butter. At least when he realised what you'd done he had a legit reason to curse like a trooper.

I apologised if I've offended anyone with this post but I have a bit of a weird sense of humour. I've tried to moderate it in the past but it only seems to get much worse which usually lands me in even more trouble. So in the end I decided to stay as I was, actually getting into into far less trouble which for a while made me seem far better than I actually was, rather than just as bad, if not even worse.
 
honestly nothing that bad. sold some of my belongings. always had decent employment so I had my own money - even though I did live check to check on six figures for several years.
 
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