So without getting blood work done, is there anyway to gauge how low or high my T levels might be? I can arrange for that to happen I am just wondering if maybe can avoid that expense if you guys think it might not be related/worthwhile to my situation below.
If I don't smoke weed regularly I'm pretty insane. Real confident, eager on confrontation - just really wild and reckless and willing to put myself in danger. I am insanely hard every morning, I fuck every day(with few exceptions) and jerk off multiple times to keep myself from going too crazy. I'm in my early 30's and its been like this for.. well, since I was a teenager. I don't know enough about steroids and T levels but my sober self reminds me of jacked up roided people I've known in the past(who I really got along with when sober lol).
However a part of me thinks its nothing to do with hormones and maybe I'm just a bit fucked up. I can't easily put on muscle, in fact its near impossible. If I workout, I just get insanely hungry - and no matter how much food I eat, nothing really changes, except my shits become a lot bigger. The heaviest I ever weighed was 79kg/174lb. That was after 3 months of triple or more my regular dietary intake, and working out pretty regularly each week. Like I had to go sooo fucking hard just to put on a couple of kg, which I lost almost instantly when I stopped(maybe 1-2 months). My weight fluctuates between 69kg/152lb and 75kg/165lb throughout the week. Don't know why it changes so much. I've seen 5kg/11lb difference in less than 24 hours though
I'm 6ft3 for reference. The lightest I've been in recent years was 67kg/147lb after not eating full meals every day for a week or so(maybe half normal intake, 1-2 meals a day, this wasn't me trying to lose weight, just life was busy). It feels like my body is some high performance engine that chews through fuel but I'm.. not a high performance engine. I'm strong for my size but not like 'wow that guy is way stronger than I thought'.
Anyway there are two things I want to achieve(and maybe, they aren't both possible together)
1: I want to be less intense when I am not smoking weed. I need to cut back for reasons out of my control and I don't want to end up in prison or dead through my crazy antics.
2: I want to put on weight/muscle and keep it. But the rate it takes me and the cost in time/food is just too high. I need a better system/way to do this.
What do you guys think?
If I don't smoke weed regularly I'm pretty insane. Real confident, eager on confrontation - just really wild and reckless and willing to put myself in danger. I am insanely hard every morning, I fuck every day(with few exceptions) and jerk off multiple times to keep myself from going too crazy. I'm in my early 30's and its been like this for.. well, since I was a teenager. I don't know enough about steroids and T levels but my sober self reminds me of jacked up roided people I've known in the past(who I really got along with when sober lol).
However a part of me thinks its nothing to do with hormones and maybe I'm just a bit fucked up. I can't easily put on muscle, in fact its near impossible. If I workout, I just get insanely hungry - and no matter how much food I eat, nothing really changes, except my shits become a lot bigger. The heaviest I ever weighed was 79kg/174lb. That was after 3 months of triple or more my regular dietary intake, and working out pretty regularly each week. Like I had to go sooo fucking hard just to put on a couple of kg, which I lost almost instantly when I stopped(maybe 1-2 months). My weight fluctuates between 69kg/152lb and 75kg/165lb throughout the week. Don't know why it changes so much. I've seen 5kg/11lb difference in less than 24 hours though
I'm 6ft3 for reference. The lightest I've been in recent years was 67kg/147lb after not eating full meals every day for a week or so(maybe half normal intake, 1-2 meals a day, this wasn't me trying to lose weight, just life was busy). It feels like my body is some high performance engine that chews through fuel but I'm.. not a high performance engine. I'm strong for my size but not like 'wow that guy is way stronger than I thought'. Anyway there are two things I want to achieve(and maybe, they aren't both possible together)
1: I want to be less intense when I am not smoking weed. I need to cut back for reasons out of my control and I don't want to end up in prison or dead through my crazy antics.
2: I want to put on weight/muscle and keep it. But the rate it takes me and the cost in time/food is just too high. I need a better system/way to do this.
What do you guys think?
