Cocaine What to do...

[CaramelMind]

Hey there,

Ok so I had a gig tonight in Soho in London (I'm a drummer in a band) and was given line of cocaine after. Me being a drug taker, i happily snorted the line and felt good. But this chilled night of which i was intending to be only a couple beers and an early night ready for the Arctic Monkeys concert tomorrow in London, has in fact wound up with me now diving into my 2nd gram at 5am in my room on my own. I will not be sleeping what so ever now. I am meeting my friend in only 6 hours. I mean… why? Why do we do this? I came home and instead of having a beer and a cigarette with cheese sandwich and going to bed, i carried on. I have another gram left. I am writing this in the knowledge that i am going to be utterly suicidal and depressed so so shortly.

Why do we do it? Why would i never recommend cocaine to anybody but MDMA i would. But yet i still do coke even though its just plain shit.
Is it just me who has no self control.

P.S I'm buzzing while typing this. Much love BL.

 

[sekio]

This is more appropriate for your blog.

I don't know what to tell you other than don't do cocaine if it makes you feel awful.

 

[Larc]

We do it because we generally all have underlying problems we dont want to deal with.

We are drug addicts, drugs make us feel good.

I know this is a simple explanation, but it holds true for most of us.

 

[T. Calderone]

Why do we do this? Good question to which I have no good answer. I had a love/hate relationship with cocaine too. Once I had it, I had to do it all because it was there. I didn't really get next day remorse from snorting though I did sometimes feel shitty. Crack forget it, comedowns were awful.

 

[abracadabra girl]

Send me the coke, solve all your woes.

 

[alexbaggins]

treat ya self

 

[neversickanymore]

Cocain greatly increases the dopamine, increased dopamine equals decreased impulse control.

dont try and drink/pill yourself down.. eat, get some exercise, shower and go on with life.

 

[CaramelMind]

Thanks for the genuine replies. The thread was me rambling really. I mean i guess it is an addiction, although i never call in a packet when sober. Ya know? I don't ever plan to do coke, once those beers go down its like… why don't we make this night better, but it doesn't make it better. I worked out how much I spent on cocaine last year and it was over £1500. When I joined the band I'm in, cocaine was like novelty. This is my third time this year doing it. But i will admit, every time i have a drink i think about it. If i never had the money to buy then i wouldn't. I accumulated a shit load of dealers numbers as well so wherever i am, i can get it. I just can't seem to stop once i start. I have a friend who can save coke for another time. I find that amazing, ha.

Whats the deal with the utter generosity that coke give you as well haha. I just seem to buy everybody drinks.
Once again, thanks for the company BL'ers. I have actually enjoyed this evening though, on internet chat rooms and listening to music.

I'll look back at this when sober and be like… why did i type this absolute drivel. It's either bluelight or yahoo questions. ha. Much Love.

 

[CaramelMind]

I haven't got that much of a problem with it. I'm actually a serious gym goer and healthy eater. My question, beneath all the bull shit I'm chatting is just, why do we do what we do? It's just a release isn't it. Escaping the mundane normality.

 

[TheLostBoys]

I haven't got that much of a problem with it. I'm actually a serious gym goer and healthy eater. My question, beneath all the bull shit I'm chatting is just, why do we do what we do? It's just a release isn't it. Escaping the mundane normality.

Some of us have the same reasons & some have different reasons why we do drugs searching for the outlet of our problems or just wanting to relieve ourselves for the every day mundane life style we've come to know.

To some, life is boring & drugs bring a spark to the most boring aspect of our lives.

It boils down to wanting love, money, family......& when those are not fulfilled, we find a substance to fill that void (meaning, it makes us forget about why we are not loved, why we dont have enough money to buy what we want or pay the bills & why we don't have the "perfect" family.....

Hey life is tough enough w/o drugs, but we still complicate it with drugs trying to forget about the complications.......crazy, aye!

 

[noo1]

Wow. Its like you have read my mind. I share exactly the same views. I cannot have a drink without coke or cat. And its never just one. It ends up being a mind fuck binge with regrets the next day. Right now I have done 3 grams of cat and coke mixed. And I hate myself lol. And really I am sure its boredom and mundaness of routine and life that makes me do it. But wow the expense is terrible. But again I still do it.

 

[MrCookiE]

I wrote a fuckin wel long answer to original post, my fone lost signal and it ain't fuckin here! MOTHER FUCKER!

 

[Frydea]

I've been able to do coke very rarely and not crave it, but when you do it it's sooo easy to go all out. I feel you on feeling shitty afterwards, the worst is when you finish what you originally bought and call your guy right back tryin to get more, and hit up random friends to put down on some. Then when that's done you're left saying shit all that effort and money for this? Last couple times though I was able to do only a few lines throughout the early part of the night then just chill and smoke weed after and I was fine.