BananasAndOranges
Bluelighter
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- Mar 25, 2010
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I think I made a big mistake moving out of my parents, but maybe not. I love them but they smother me to much with bs. I'm trying to get off this methadone/heroin thing. I've used heroing and vicodin no methadone for now 2days. I feel like utter shit. I should have some clondine,and some promethazine for the discomfort but anyway I'm really thinking about going cold turkey and just using those pills and my benzos and extras that I have and a little weed.
Theres something wrong with me and I cant even diagnose it. I really feel terrible for everything I've done and the truth is I haven't done anything. Well other than use drugs I have never stole, thieved, or "borrowed" from anyone in my life. It always happens to me if anything. I don't really know what I should do right now I dunno if extra benzos and those two meds will get me by and some herb for atleast 4 days so I can get clean for good, switch to subs and do a Very quick taper if anything just subs for 2 days max. If I dont use I feel fine, if I use, I feel like a maniac, manic depressive, and really really regret things I shouldn't regret but shouldn't be thinking about even. I hope this is understandable to someone as fucked up as me.
Theres something wrong with me and I cant even diagnose it. I really feel terrible for everything I've done and the truth is I haven't done anything. Well other than use drugs I have never stole, thieved, or "borrowed" from anyone in my life. It always happens to me if anything. I don't really know what I should do right now I dunno if extra benzos and those two meds will get me by and some herb for atleast 4 days so I can get clean for good, switch to subs and do a Very quick taper if anything just subs for 2 days max. If I dont use I feel fine, if I use, I feel like a maniac, manic depressive, and really really regret things I shouldn't regret but shouldn't be thinking about even. I hope this is understandable to someone as fucked up as me.
