Hey guys.. I posted a thread 3 weeks ago here, writing this:
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Hey guys,
I am currently sitting in my bed, shaking a little bit, feeling anxious and unable to fall asleep. I experienced this (much worse) yesterday at about same time. I am 21, male, and have a little experience with drugs (had shrooms once, mdma twice and cocaine once in the past, smoke weed twice a month)
The thing is, I had exctasy for the first time in my life 6 days ago, had terrible 5 minutes before kick-in, then a great trip. Day after that (New Years Eve) I got so drunk I dont rememer a single thing, I ended up very close to alcohol intoxication, I looked horrible. My friends say that I claimed I had cocaine that night, but unfortunately I can not remember. I had no comedown from exctasy and felt pretty normal after that alcohol & probably cocaine night as I vomited everything and my friends took good care of me.
However, I felt little bit strange and negative the next 3 days, had little trouble falling asleep, but everything seemed normal. But yesterday was bad...
Yesterday's morning I woke up and felt very strange, my heart was beating fast, I started to shake and became very anxious. Fortunately, my girlfriend woke up too and made me relaxed (but I felt really bad for like 30 minutes and the anxiety was enormous, absolutely no positive feelings, everything was bad, I was scared for my life). After she cooled me down, I fell asleep again and felt normal today. Until now.
In the moment I laid down to my bed, the shaking started again, anxiety kicked in and I have no idea what to do I calmed down a little bit writing this thread. Im sure that it will start again once I lay down though (its better when I sit, I simply can not lay down, that makes it worse).
Any help from more experienced people will be appreciated, help me please I have no idea how to fall asleep, whether this will return tommorow night and so on and so on..
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There are 2 main reasons why I am posting this and requesting your help
The first one: I found out I did not have cocaine, BUT I HAD LSD. I found out there was a guy offering drugs at the party, I called him and he remembered I had LSD. If I wasn't so drunk, I would not take it. Unfortunately, I can not remeber a single thing from the trip.
The second, and more important: After those terrible 2 days, I eventually got back to fully normal state (it took like 5 days to become normal mentally). I was happy it disappeared, got back to my exercise routine, ate well etc. I thanked God it went away. But then I had the last exam and I studied really hard for 5 days, did not have lot of sleep, ate junk food, got slightly drunk once and smoked a little bit of weed too. 3 days ago, the feeling came again...
I was laying in the bed with my girlfriend and suddenly, my hands started to sweat and my heart started to beat fast. I knew something is wrong. Got the same negative feelings, had trouble falling asleep, thank God my girlfriend was there again and calmed me down. It wasn't as bad as 3 weeks ago, but still pretty bad. The next day I was very negative, scared, there were horrible scenarios coming to my mind (that this will last forever, that my gf will leave me if I stay like this etc.). I had no libido, was not feeling horny at all, which made it even worse, because I felt like crap not pleasing my gf, who was absolutely fantastic and supportive the whole time (I still felt like crap). And again, trouble falling asleep, feeling very negative the next day. This is the 4th day, it started to get better a little bit, but I still have bad feeling, life seems very boring, I still have bad scenarios in my mind.
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How the hell is this possible, after 2 weeks of being totally normal, without any sign of worsening? What should I do? I am really concerned about my mental health in the long-term, I appreciate any kind of advice
Thanks in advance guys
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Hey guys,
I am currently sitting in my bed, shaking a little bit, feeling anxious and unable to fall asleep. I experienced this (much worse) yesterday at about same time. I am 21, male, and have a little experience with drugs (had shrooms once, mdma twice and cocaine once in the past, smoke weed twice a month)
The thing is, I had exctasy for the first time in my life 6 days ago, had terrible 5 minutes before kick-in, then a great trip. Day after that (New Years Eve) I got so drunk I dont rememer a single thing, I ended up very close to alcohol intoxication, I looked horrible. My friends say that I claimed I had cocaine that night, but unfortunately I can not remember. I had no comedown from exctasy and felt pretty normal after that alcohol & probably cocaine night as I vomited everything and my friends took good care of me.
However, I felt little bit strange and negative the next 3 days, had little trouble falling asleep, but everything seemed normal. But yesterday was bad...
Yesterday's morning I woke up and felt very strange, my heart was beating fast, I started to shake and became very anxious. Fortunately, my girlfriend woke up too and made me relaxed (but I felt really bad for like 30 minutes and the anxiety was enormous, absolutely no positive feelings, everything was bad, I was scared for my life). After she cooled me down, I fell asleep again and felt normal today. Until now.
In the moment I laid down to my bed, the shaking started again, anxiety kicked in and I have no idea what to do I calmed down a little bit writing this thread. Im sure that it will start again once I lay down though (its better when I sit, I simply can not lay down, that makes it worse).
Any help from more experienced people will be appreciated, help me please I have no idea how to fall asleep, whether this will return tommorow night and so on and so on..
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There are 2 main reasons why I am posting this and requesting your help
The first one: I found out I did not have cocaine, BUT I HAD LSD. I found out there was a guy offering drugs at the party, I called him and he remembered I had LSD. If I wasn't so drunk, I would not take it. Unfortunately, I can not remeber a single thing from the trip.
The second, and more important: After those terrible 2 days, I eventually got back to fully normal state (it took like 5 days to become normal mentally). I was happy it disappeared, got back to my exercise routine, ate well etc. I thanked God it went away. But then I had the last exam and I studied really hard for 5 days, did not have lot of sleep, ate junk food, got slightly drunk once and smoked a little bit of weed too. 3 days ago, the feeling came again...
I was laying in the bed with my girlfriend and suddenly, my hands started to sweat and my heart started to beat fast. I knew something is wrong. Got the same negative feelings, had trouble falling asleep, thank God my girlfriend was there again and calmed me down. It wasn't as bad as 3 weeks ago, but still pretty bad. The next day I was very negative, scared, there were horrible scenarios coming to my mind (that this will last forever, that my gf will leave me if I stay like this etc.). I had no libido, was not feeling horny at all, which made it even worse, because I felt like crap not pleasing my gf, who was absolutely fantastic and supportive the whole time (I still felt like crap). And again, trouble falling asleep, feeling very negative the next day. This is the 4th day, it started to get better a little bit, but I still have bad feeling, life seems very boring, I still have bad scenarios in my mind.
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How the hell is this possible, after 2 weeks of being totally normal, without any sign of worsening? What should I do? I am really concerned about my mental health in the long-term, I appreciate any kind of advice
Thanks in advance guys