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what keeps you sober? What is your reward?

n3ophy7e said:
This is actually something I need to work on...as I don't have any rewards for staying sober. The only thing keeping me sober is knowing how intensely disappointed I would feel with myself if I drank again....
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You're kicking ASS, girl!!!!! <3 <3 <3
 
Being and feeling honest is a big reward for me too. When I was using and stuff I didn't even realize how bad lying makes me feel.
Hitting the clubs to dance, meet new people etc. is so much more fun than getting wasted.
Taking some care of my outer appearance. (Yes, I'm still a straight male ;))
Fancy leisure activities like going to a sauna resort, paintball, hopefully paragliding soon.
Going abroad for 4 months soon.
 
11,233 days since my last drink or drug.

I've experienced a life beyond imagining, a real roller coaster ride. Lately the ride's been on the downhill slope. Loss of a successful business, deep depression, difficulty finding the motivation to move ahead. Been perusing this forum for a while, thinking that once I've settled all my affairs, filed chapter 7 and sorted everything out I can re-evaluate why I've stayed clean for so long.

Much of it was due to fear, I still remember the degradation of a life of daily intoxication. While I never want to feel that again, there is the draw of opiates and the peaceful oblivion they always provided. I doubt I'll ever go back to it, but if I do it will be a choice, not an accident.

One more time I'm hooked up with a sponsor and am going through the steps like a newcomer - hoping to be restored to sanity.

We'll see.
 
You're hooked up with a sponsor and working the steps like a newcomer. You're kicking ass in my book. You will be restored to sanity.

Keep coming back.

Life turns to shit sometimes, but without our sobriety, nothing else matters. Without our sobriety the rest is immaterial.
No matter what happens, you will be just fine if you work an even half-decent program.
Remember that ours is a progressive illness, and returning to drink or drug or both will find you advanced in your addiction.
Stay with us. Hug your sponsor's neck and walk with us in the sunlight of the spirit.

best to ya,
podsnomo

Lysdexic said:
11,233 days since my last drink or drug.

I've experienced a life beyond imagining, a real roller coaster ride. Lately the ride's been on the downhill slope. Loss of a successful business, deep depression, difficulty finding the motivation to move ahead. Been perusing this forum for a while, thinking that once I've settled all my affairs, filed chapter 7 and sorted everything out I can re-evaluate why I've stayed clean for so long.

Much of it was due to fear, I still remember the degradation of a life of daily intoxication. While I never want to feel that again, there is the draw of opiates and the peaceful oblivion they always provided. I doubt I'll ever go back to it, but if I do it will be a choice, not an accident.

One more time I'm hooked up with a sponsor and am going through the steps like a newcomer - hoping to be restored to sanity.

We'll see.
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My rewards for sobriety seem to be God granted, like new job opportunities, stuff that I obviously have no control over but seem to come my way regardless.

"We don't reward clean time, as clean time is a reward in itself"

I do, however, indulge in cd's, reading books, riding and showing horses once again, being an older sister, being a daughter and younger sister, meditation and prayer, exercise, makeup, clothes, jewelry, food, day trips, etc.

Mostly things that I wouldn't have if it weren't for my two jobs, neither of which I could possibly maintain if it weren't for my sobriety. Granted, I do get carried away with the acquiring mechanism, but at least I'm no longer seeking drugs and one night stands.

I also have an app that counts my sober date, along with the sober days of my home group members.

Reading the just for today every day is a treat in itself, but my absolute favorite rewards are the stunningly serene moments of clarity that knock me on my as and make me realise why i want to stay on this path. I rareely got hose while using, and when I did, I'd just use and forget about them anyways.

Pretty much just enjoying (for the most part) life in general...
 
Today is two weeks i have been sober, i feel as if every day is a gift because i thought i was a gonner, and i know what your thinkin "its only been two weeks dont count your chickens befor they hatch" but i will never go back so every day i have been rewarding myself with a life that just seems easy as pie compared to trying to cop a few hundred mg of oxy. With all the money i have now since i dont use i am fullfilling my dreams, first and foremost i have been spoiling my fiancee, yesterday i wrote her a very sweet note on a zip lock bag and then proceded to fill it with some really nice buds( i dont think weed is a drug) and i taped it to the door so when she woke up and went to leave the room she would find it and it really made her day. It made me feel like a million bucks. I can also finaly afford to get my liscence to skydive, i have been 3 times tandem and it really is my dream i dream every night about freefall. I reward myself by spending time with the best friends anyone could ask for, which is such a luxury because befor being on a constant search for opiates left me no time to spend with them, i grew up in a town that had 5000 people when i was born and has 15000 now it sucks cause we r bearly getting a walmart, but the upside to it is that alot of my friends have been here our whole lives. I am 22 years old and i have had alot of my friends since we started school at 4, and that is somthing some people will never kno. I celebrate every day and remind myself im only human "to err is human, to forgive devine" i could go on for ever cause everything seems like a reward because previously it all seemed like one big punishment or a sick joke.....sober life is good.


Sry about the "wall of txt" i do everything from my phone and i usualy use the quick reply box which is small so i dobt really make paragraphs
 
I try to spend all my expendable income on beer and cigs that way I don't no money for drugs
 
Fear. Fear of my husband being fed up and leaving me. And taking our children with him. Fear of not being able to raise my children. Fear of being another OD statistic like almost every friend I had. I'm only 4 days without dope, but this is what I'm keeping front and center in my mind.
 
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